Misunderstood

2006-11-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

http://hubbasphynx.blogspot.com/

My old one.

2006-11-27T15:04:00.000+08:00

http://meetimaginaryme.blogspot.com/

i decided it was time for a change.
Besides.
this one was getting laggy.

2006-09-07T14:00:00.000+08:00

She's got all the boys sucking her up,
They're out of breath I'm out of luck.
He puts on his green shirt again,
I've got nothing else to do but wait.

Oh, It's killing me but kelly says-wait.
so i do.

These fingers stuck on keyboard keys,
they're cold. Oh wait, let me sneeze.

2006-08-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

This is a BIG thank you to all you humanoids who wished me a happy birthday!
(especially to the ones who got me presents. much love)

So, if you like- forgot. and are now whipping out your handphones planning to sms me to get into my 'this person is a very nice person' book, It's too late sucker!
However, i might forgive you on the terms of a truckload of wonka's marshmellow delight, a nice cap, 12 different pairs of multicoloured toe socks and perhaps a nice elephant mug to go with that.

SO STOCK UP!

nahhhhh..... just kidding.
really.

THANKS FOR THE PRESENT MOM AND DAD!.If you see this.
Daryls'Bappy Hirthday'
I like my belt Rae.
very much appreciated Wack on the head for luck there nicole.
and wow to Joey and kai-waffle head, You honestly did not Have to throw me at a wall THAT hard. (and i'm not talking about sympathy for the wall here. please draw your attention to some insignificant other.)
Tara, nathalie, angeline, lynny, sonya, kimberly and anton for being the best friends at different times in this life.

Rae went for the death cab concert over there in gold coast. (freak) Now she's going to see Dashboard, Gah!- imagine me running around pulling hair and screaming till i puke my lungs out.
i mean, now dashboards new album sucks, what with songs about lung cancer and shit but i did love his earlier more soul ful work.

I shall now go think of and practice singing like Bob marley.
ciao.

2006-08-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

Hello to all you dudes and dudettes.
I'm so sorry I haven't been updating as much as i used to etc etc. Because i've been busy with a recent theatre production entitled 'skins'. A youth initiated project by the southeast cdc, y2y network. It's been an amazing experience where i've got to learn more about theatre and made many more very interesting friends.

SKINS!

2006-07-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

Nice one's of bangkok I always forget to put up.

2006-05-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

Bangkok

sawadee ka sawadee krup
Here's a biscuit, Just for luck.
Roadside stalls, dogey looking food.
That's it, that's the bangkok mood.
Everything is great to eat.
Bangkok stuff is, Very cheap.
Cone like hats, cows and grass.
Hope someone doesn't touch your arse.
Pink taxi cabs go vrooming past,
Everything is fast fast fast.
(except the traffic, really slow)
15 million people in bangkok you know.
imitation music, goods and brands
There i made many many friends,
buildings grow so very high,
very lovely morning sky.
The night bazar is really vast.
Be careful that you don't get lost.

Thailand, Bangkok's really good.
Go to bangkok.
YES YOU SHOULD!

2006-05-07T12:18:00.000+08:00

-Singapore-

for art stuff...

2006-03-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

A place called Kcs

Art class for a reason
School

2006-02-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

.Here we Go.

2006-02-13T18:04:00.000+08:00

Dear Valentine

I Told you she'd make you happy,
Told you she'd make you smile.
I Told you she was pretty,
Told you she's worth your while.
So why can't i breathe easy?
He's waiting on the porch.
The keys jingle in my hand,
As i hesitate to open the latch.
I lean back
against the door.

Take in your scent from december.

Remember My toes skimming the marble floor.
Though there was no music, you asked for one more.
It was here where I'm standing now.
When just Before,
My fingers trembled as they ran unsure through your hair.
3 lanes from here, but now so far.
measured my water by the glass
on the bench where you had your first kiss.
we didn't give our all,
but both knew it was just a few inches more
till heaven.

I choked back the flow
once i realised I'd let one loose.
Because it won't happen anymore
no it won't.
I'd smashed the peaches on the floor.
Left my christmas bear in the rain.
Broke the bracelet you gave me 4 days before.
it's quite alright,
both you and i know that you deserve much more.

Tear petals of bluebells from my window, watch them float...
Aphrodite's sin.
Give her a de' kathy for me.
While i let him in.

I'll smile next saturday when you hold her hand
and wish that you were mine.
I've etched your name on my wrist dear memory.

Happy Valentine's

By kathy

2006-01-24T15:15:00.000+08:00

303

i just love my class.

2006-01-15T11:04:00.000+08:00

Thank you Daryl! : )

***My Monster Profile***
Mad Slimer
I Feast On: Beer
I Lurk Around In: Closets
I Especially Like to Torment: Priests

***My French Name is:***
Frédérique Bernier
w.t.f...

***In a Past Life...***
I was: A Gentle Priest.
Where I Lived: Ireland.
How I Died: Consumption

***I am 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish***
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

***My Superhero Profile***
My Superhero Name is The Thunder Wombat
My Superpower is Waking Through Walls
My Weakness is French People
My Weapon is Your Invisible Gel and Priests Sermons
My Mode of Transportation is Broom

Yea... happy belated total defence day.

2006-01-09T18:30:00.000+08:00

Mommy, i told a lie.
Now charlotte's dead,
But mommy don't cry....

2005-12-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

-Voo doo-

She looked at both of them, 'him' and 'her'.
Their eyes no shame, nor gleam, nor tear.
Heartbroken, anger and misery led,
She tried to rub the tension out of her head.
Her thoughts floated her 4 months back
to the days 'him' said 'i love you' and ment that.
to the days where 'her' hadn't been such a bitch
But now she was just full of shit.
They almost always went out togther.
Sunny days and rainy weather.
'she' knew how much 'he' ment to her,
'he' didn't know where his feelings were.
she knew what was happening but all she could do was try.
But then came that fateful day 19th July.
That was when it happened, 'he'
took 'her' by the hand and said-"love me".

That was it right there. that was when,
Her insides twisted and knotted and then....
it choked her till it was hard to breathe,
She wiped those tears of hers on her sleeve.

She grabbed the nail's next to her, pierced them inside-
'Him' and 'her', showed no emotion nor cried.
she stabbed them continously, cut off their arms.
But 'him' and 'her' just smiled with all of their charms.

Then she stopped.....
Looked at them with her tear stained face.
They just looked back at her,
Not a hint of disgrace.

Then slowy one by one, she took out the nails.
Sew back their arms and then took her own pills.
She set fire to them outside on her lawn,
That was it. her hatred.
Gone.

She washed her face. greif no more.
She threw her towel onto the floor.

"That's it" she said. expressions Bare.
"Forgiveness is the hardest, i swear..."

-by katz

for sallie who loved someone so much she'd die.
Everything's gonna be alright babe, you'll see.

2005-12-28T09:41:00.000+08:00

-A boy in Vietnam-

Let him dance.
The world's not ended yet.
The sun's warm,
trees are green.
Vast blue skies, all that!

Grandma hasn't finished knitting
her 99th sweater.
Some cancer patients,
are getting better-
each day : )

My dog's still chewing on
His christmas bone.
We'll pray for the children
Who don't have a home.
(we're lucky you know)

Some guy from chilli,
just got a univesity degree.
There still are so many,
Different shapes of clouds to see!

A couple just got married
in new dehli
Children have hopes and
dreams to live really...

You still haven't seen your
last Rainbow yet.
Daniel next door just finished
building his train set.
(it's very nice...)

If you haven't told someone-
you love him or her, Now's your chance!
(Chance's don't come along twice for some)
The world's not ended.
So for now in the rain, let me dance.
(along next to the boy in vietnam)

-by katz

2005-12-25T17:52:00.000+08:00

-Watch you pass me by-

Hey,
long time no see...
You're taller now and look awesome in that tie-less suit.

Yes,
I have thought about you.
You, your chocolate and skate-shoes.
Non stop actually, but I've been too scared to fight for you back.

Mistake?
Too much of a mistake, It definately was.
I've cried before countless times, don't make me do it again.

But,
I'm looking at you now.
Your hair's different, you smile different.
I've gotta admit i'm afraid, don't wanna let you slip away again.

But i've got to.

You can't be,
the boy i kissed the summer before last is gone.
there's a new twinkle in your eye now, you've become a man.

It's come,
Back again. Not surprising really.
But you just hit me harder then a day after that summer.
Should i try? Should i not?
I hurt you before.... Never want to hurt you again.
I blew it before. so is that it?

True,
You wrote me a letter.
Do you still mean what you wrote before?

I did,
I'll just pass you, with tears in these eyes.
and just for you I'll hide it inside.
Because i don't wanna hurt you again.
like i did before.
Keep that smile, it does wonders to me.
It makes me hurt so much I'd really rather die.

Hey,
I'll do it for you.
I'll pass you by with teary eyes.
But for what it's worth, i really did.

Really did, still really do
Love you...

-katz
It's free verse, in case you were wondering

2005-12-24T12:28:00.000+08:00

From black revolver

2005-12-24T09:51:00.000+08:00

-Christmas-

It never snows in singapore, bummer.

My mother and I twined a 25 foot long lights thing around a 5 foot long christmas wreath with acorns and white stuff. Now it just looks like a Lights thing.

There's a house across the street that put lights on their huge christmas tree outside their house. But took it out when the tree nearly caught fire due to the rain.

My mother and I put the crib of jesus christ, almightly God and saviour in our fish tank. Mother wanted to fill it up with water and buy Angel fish to swim around in it. But i just screamed.

Kevin won't be home for christmas, He'll be in some wonderful far away place with hot air stewardesses.

My mother is making me wear a maternity dress look a-like to christmas mass. It's blue and frilly.

Mother helped me clean my room for christmas. Now i can see the floor. It's brown and parquet.

I couldn't find any wrapping paper for everyone's presents so i used paper bags and newspaper.

I spent christmas eve lunch eating tuna sandwiches.

That's my christmas so far.

Have fun you guys! and happy holidays!

-katz

2005-12-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

Blah.....

adam. says:
its a poem?

adam. says:
your poems are deep thats for sure which shows alot of deep thought is concerned

katz* and i swear that i will never love again says:
It's about how one is safe when she's never tasted love.
The romantic sort of love.
It's about how she's unvulnarable to hurt, pain, anger.
Because love is heroin and once you've tasted it, You'll just crave it.
However, the state she's in is a safehold of thorns as she doesn't know it.
doesn't know what it feels like. She doesn't know the beauty of love as love itself and only hear of it.
those are the two sides to my poem.
The second part.

If you are loved indeed(and you don't love the other person back), think deeply
Of the suffering your kiss will bring(as kissing is a sign of love and if you do it to the person who loves you without meaning it, the other person would just crush to know the truth).
If you ARE love(But you pretend you DOn't love the one you do as you you say you don't like him/her or stuff like that), hum softly.
The song of guilt you have to sing. (You'll always just live in regret of not knowing what it would be like if you indeed did show your true feelings for the other person...)

katz* and i swear that i will never love again says:
Do you get it?

adam. says:
well thought of=)

adam. says:
well if your happy

adam. says:
then so m i

adam. says:
=) hahah

adam. says:
ooh you gotta see this!

adam. says:
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adam. says:
ahh man

adam. says:
I GOT A PONYTAIL!

adam. says:
YOU SHLD SSEEEEEEEEEE!

.........................................I give up.

But don't Get him wrong. Addy/Adam's a lovely person who teaches stupid-pathetic-lil-o'l-me to be optimistic. One of the few boys nowadays i wouldn't mind marrying without a pre-nup. He's my happy pill : )

And you there better not jump to conclusions Coz Boys can be good friends too.

2005-12-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

-Thorn Rose-

Deep within the womb of sleep,
her innocence and beauty she surrenders
to no one; life breathes unhurrid
in a peaceful dethlessness;
and who is free as in seclusion
where none can fall or weep
because of her, whose enchantment keeps her
involate, in that safehold of thorns
her fate conjures?
then do not summon her
from that state where she will not
do wrong, grow old, taste greif, face fear-
nothing can make her
nothing can wake her
except,
One thing.

except one thing.....................

If you love indeed, think deeply
of the suffering your kiss will bring.
If you are loved indeed, hum softly
the song of guilt you have yet to sing.

Have a lovely christmas. Peace.

2005-12-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life.

This is my last of being me.

2005-12-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

Valun --- (rough home recording)
by Nick Goldston

Life's trickling by, and i'm still screamingfor help, and i'm still dreaming about youand ive been thinkin of us too, the sunnydays were long on the beach of the shorewhen i got what i wanted and still beggingfor more, so burry me, with you and all your fearsso now i confess with last tears,your still a blast after nine years.And I swear-------------i was made for thisthat i will never love again that she will stay firm as my friend that i will never tell a lie cause just one more and thats goodbyeAnd its rare--------------to find a place like thisthat i will never love again that she will stay firm as my friend that i will never tell a lie cause just one more and thats goodbyethe perfume you wore made you last so long(i'll see you)so here i am contradicting myself again(very soon)they way you moved, the way you proved, the way i still look back at then and wonder why i never sparked the flameso now i confess with last tears,your still a blast after nine years.And I swear-------------i was made for thisthat i will never love again that she will stay firm as my friend that i will never tell a lie cause just one more and thats goodbyeAnd its rare--------------to find a place like thisthat i will never love again that she will stay firm as my friend that i will never tell a lie cause just one more and thats goodbyesee you next yearAnd I swear-------------i was made for thisAnd its rare--------------to find a place like thisthat i will never love again that she will stay firm as my friend that i will never tell a lie cause just one more and thats goodbye.

The chrous is a bit messy but it's still good for a home recording.

Other good songs by him include.
Goodbye
Bright skies (the point of the song is pretty dumb and the chrous lyrics are even worse. Listen to the verses.)
Ludo

But for all you dude's and dudettes who hate the john mayer style.
despise Indie. emo or acoustic
or are racist towards ppl for Long island NY.

Then don't bother.

http://www.purevolume.com/ducttape

2005-12-08T11:48:00.001+08:00

i just learnt a new word thanks to charles chander. 'mungen'. Blah. Shoot me for being exposed to such nonsense.

2005-12-03T10:09:00.000+08:00

French words on the mantelpiece

It's just another day,
My sunlight's shinning bright.
He's leaving again,
but it's not for the first time.

It's just another day,
milk spilt on the carpet.
She left once more,
She didn't say goodbye.

But she's crying on his doorstep,
I don't know why.

Does she wanna go?
Does he wanna come back?
let's blame all these stupid thing's called regret.

Pretty fireworks in the sky,
It's the fourth of july.
She'll stand alone,
till the rain falls and cover's her toes.

Now he's got some new girl,
But she doesn't have his heart.
It was lost somewhere
2 weeks in march.

But they'll never know.
They never will seem to go back.
Coz she was a bitch.
and he was an arrogant Twat.

So it's just left there.
Unseen in the least.
Thier french words of love on the mantel piece.

- by katz

2005-12-01T17:23:00.000+08:00

St Hopeless

The song that never fails to make me go nutz*

Here he goes! His dumb mohawked hair one foot high.
( Here i imagne i can play the guitar then I Head bang twice and go - Jang Jang.)
Shoes go cling clang partially blind in one eye
(that's when I jump around like a mad fool)
Here he comes!
Dressed all punkish black,
pants so tight they squeeze his legs to death.
(I'm still jumping around here playing my imaginary guitar)
His lungs go stale at thirty sticks a day,
I think he's gonna Rot his life away..................
(I start running at the 'I' and then I slide on the floor on 'away')

There he goes,
(I stand up and Run around)
Listening to punk rock, and his friends crap.
Drugs, blood, sex, booze, his eyes lined black.
(Jumping up and down)
There he goes out clean with his grimme face dead.
COme's back late and he's got blood on his head.
(Jumping higher)
He can't remember his girlfriend's names and faces,
He's shoved his di*k too many places........
(Does funny footwork here)

How can we save him from this nightmare.
Somehow to us it just seems unfair.
His anger caged behined black distress.
He's got a name and it's St Hopeless!!!
(Run around like crazy smashing my imaginary guitar, i jump up and down and headbang)

I'm such a nuthead*

The song 'dance dance' by fall out boy has the same effect on me. so if you don't want me to jump around like a mad hooligan. DON'T play these two songs.

2005-11-20T08:26:00.000+08:00

-The Mule from Mars-

I have officially fallen in love with Jamie cullum. I stole the cd from the room next door to mine. He's a word Genius... going to sell tickets early today for the play. watched just like heaven yesterday with mom and nan. was real sweet. Many people go to T.M... especially the one's you know for some reason... haha. I tried to glue leaves together. Was easy but sticky it's down my lane somewhere... Who ever's bored should go take a look at it. It's a masterpiece. Tata : )

-And eldest Elephant Screamed-

2005-11-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

I'm moody today. Don't touch me or I'll chew your hand off. I'll leave you with one of my weirder poems.

-untitled(Really untitled)-

There's a a dot in my head.
Just a tiny black dot.
It's whizzing around in my head,
and I can't seem to make it stop.
It's going up and down,
Round and round.
It makes a funny buzzing sound.
The dot's turning pink, green, blue,
Now it's colourful like the zoo.
It's still buzzing in my brain.
Now it sounds like a subway trian.
To and fro,
There it goes.
And where it stops, no one knows.
I think i'm going crazy.
I'm screamin' :
"SOmeone save me!"
.........................................WAIT!
The dot.
The dot has stopped.
And suddenly..............
It POPS!

YAy!!!! no more dots in my head!
Hurrah hurrah! I can't be dead!
I'm free I tell you!
Free of the dot!
............................Oh wait..... no i'm not.....
Now.... there's....

A SPOT!

There's a spot in my head.
Just a tiny black spot.
It's whizzing around in my head,
And
I
can't
seem
to
make
it
.........................................Stop.

- by Katz

2005-11-16T08:50:00.000+08:00

-Sunday's Child-

It's been ages since i've updated. ah well. good morning to ya'll out there who acctually read my blog (stupidest shit in the world), it's 8.49 exactly. sun is shining, birds are singing, all is well on the holiday. Yay! -runs around and screams.
I'll be heading to 303 next year, yay!!!! arts class, exactly the way i wanna head. people with me will be
-Nicole Ho (greatest punk-art person who ever lived, Greenday fan, Drama babe)
-Angeline (a singing partner, Drama darling and Screams real loud when angry)
-Alyssa (R&B soul sista', most likely my new singing partner)
-Swee Min (The sweetest sweetest nicest girl who never gets angry)
-Maria chia (Hugs partner!)
-and a whole bunch of other people who are gonna make 303 2006 go down in history!

haha... If you ask about the smarties....
-Taralyn teo (My ex singing partner, only girl i've known since kinde friend) 305
-Clarissa (smiley friend, another hugs partner and e girl who loves pink) 305
-Nathalie A.G ( funny, always makes me smile, pretty and loves purple) 306
-Fuzzy. Fadzeera (Always makes me laugh, first lesbian kiss, Loves taking photo's, Fuzzy hair!) 306
-Gevevieve Ho (laughs like crazy, dancing on stage partner, doing stupid stuff together partner) 306

Fuzzy and I have succeeded! Daryl, rory and xiangnian/the last human-like polar bear are no longer neoprint virgins! going out with them loony's is fun. haha. these people can make a day of doing somthing into a day of pointless fun really fast. haha.

Went to ton's house on another day, and another day and another day haha. There is now officially a file of my own on his com. YAy! I figured i could also go there and upload my pics in my camera haha. Mom loves the brownies and chocolate cake ton makes.

Saw 'Him'... i see him at least once every week. I even had a dream. i feel so stupid, I can't tell him coz he's got a girlfriend, Can't bring myself to even talk to him properly, let alone be myself around him. I feel pathetic... coz most likely, it's gonna be like this for a long long while.

Went with Lynny to meet, daryl, rory, hakim and xiang nian again on monday. haha. watched land of the dead at rorys house which is really weird and scray. Rory-"If zombies take over the world, if they're resident evil zombies, we can kick their asses coz they're stupid. but if they're land of the dead zombies, we'd hell be in so much trouble coz they can run so bloody fast." haha.

New psl's are so sweet! ahaha Iknow some of em and I made new friends too! Taralyn's a psl!! hahahahahahahahahhahahaha yay! will tell ya more afterthe entire camp haha.

We're (R.G) practising for the next church play called "silent night" Everyone Come and watch!
We've been working real hard on in and your support would be greatly appreciated.
Tickets are priced at
Adult- $5
Child- $3
*the tickets are really nice too, designed and coloured by Gabrielle Harsha : )

Well folks, that's all I have for you guys so far, promise to update more often yep? hahaa. seeya! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! -katz

-Shit happens, But there's always toilet paper.-

2005-09-28T09:04:00.000+08:00

-Denn die Todton reiten schnell-

quote from the current book I am reading -"Dracula".
-for the dead travel fast.
I'm absorbed into it. can't write anymore bloody peoms coz my book has been taken away from me and he hasn't given it back to me yet.
Iggy! Gimme back my book! You have taken my salvation away from me! Roar!
Saw him this week, made my head spin.
Saw the other 'him', I'm tempted to commit murder.
I have come accustomed to drawing gothic sadistic looking teens everywhere and giving them names.
Tara taught me how to spell 'accustomed'. I Need desperately to improve my spelling.
Exams are stress and I'm contemlating suicide. I wish all you dudes and dudettes who are taking exams e best of luck! seeya.

-Charlotte bleeds-

2005-09-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm Katz. How come u have no title box thingy?? haha

heyo all!! this is Jessica invading Kathy’s blog!! Since u don’t update it at all. I’ve decided to follow Jesus.. I mean I’ve decided to write some crap...

K-kuukoo
A-Amiable
T-Terrific
H-Happy
Y-Yahoo!

Don’t ask.. But that was kinda lame huh?? Try not to die from laughing though.. cuz that'll be quite nasty….. Hmmm.. Maybe you’ll laugh so much that you’ll wake up dead tomorrow morning..
But how can u wake up dead? I mean, if you’re dead, u cant wake up isn’t it?
I wish I had a voice as good as hers! She sings really well! And she’s rather good at netball too! And she has great looks! (Unlike me) =P
Highly intelligent, although she hates studying. O well. During the sept holidays, we shall all have study groups! So it wont be so boring..

K peeps… I shall update for her another time… in the meantime, keep smiling! And try not to die from laughing..

Love you best friend!! See u in school!!! =D

(falls down the stairs)

2005-08-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

-Boogeyman-

If you think you're safe under the covers,
You're wrong! There's nothing worse than any other.
Death is waiting there and then,
for you to get eaten by 'the Boogeyman!'
In your bed, fast asleep,
When you don't even wink or peep.
It's then you'll hear a tune he hums.........
It's him. and here he comes........
Hallucinations cross your dreams,
you start to hear the sound of screams,
painfully screaming in your ears.
You start to fail to hide your tears.
Suicidal thoughts inside your head.
Somehow you know-it's somthing you dread.
There's horror lurking under your bed.
You hear a thumping, nightly brawl.
That echo's and causes your skin to crawl.
A sudden terrifying gloom.
And you know there's somthing in your room.
The temperature is freezing cold,
now you know, your soul is sold.
Terror makes you start to freck.
The hairs stand on the back of your neck.
The lights go out, then he appears.
You tremble yourself to tears.
You try to scream, but it fails to come out.
It's the Boogeyman! - there's no doubt.
His thorn-like fingers clutch your skin.
You can't breathe, the air turns thin.
He opens wide, his sharp teeth stained red.
He Gobbles you up -right off your bed.
A whisp of smoke, and just like that.
No one knows where he's at.
He smacks his lips in pure delight.
then proclaims-
'That's filled my tummy for tonight."

Poem by Katz
Kathy Anne Lim

2005-07-02T12:28:00.000+08:00

-Monsters in my closet-

This is weird, I don't even know why I have a bloody blog in the first place. I never update it about anything on my own personal life anymore. haha... ah well. I've become a movie freak. I just sit and watch rented movies all day. I'm a retard. But yesterday, I watched this scary movie called "white noise" and I don't feel like watching tv ever again. Yes folks, I'm Still a sucker for scary movies and freaky-monster-looking masks. Officially a complete weirdo. I weigh 43 kg. screw this... I'm going on a bloody diet. my aim is to be underweight by next yr. lets see, what did i do this week? Can't remember what i did on mon... think i went to macs where I saw a bunch of ppl. Then wesley's house. Tuesday... had psl thing where we collected our psl t-shirts then went to anton's house were for the rest of the day I was singing M2M's 'mirror mirror'. wednesday, Went dancing at some studio woo place. so bloody hard. it's street Jazz and hip hop with Tara. I watched the KC EMDD thingy on thursday with anton, fuzzy, maria, sabrina etc. acctually it was just anton... But ended up with everyone else. haha... The rabbit!!! yay! that's my favourite part... hahaha.. and the Drama rocked! Nadia talking to her "daughter"- the amputated leg. She was damn cute. KC Dance was scary... Had ppl screaming and dying n all in the dance. But it was cool. and the ending for the show was kinda Cheesy. hope that on Gala night they had somthing better. Fuzz and I were cursing our high heels which completely hurt or feet. So we took them off and walked barefoot from victoria concert hall to Raffles city shopping centre where we watched ppl doing scary cheerleading stunts. I spent friday playing cards and listening to music in school due to 6 bloody free periods. and then went to macs and talked to earl and witnessed mad people running around and almost killing each other -leo, ashvin and arjun on the floor above macs. Then went to macs were I met, Amy,wesley and josh. Laura and Leanne came later. Josh and I switched Badges and we all made up a story of nonsense. today will be any other saturday I suppose. Going to drama now. Oh Crap! I've got Cat class!..... blah.... Yay! I'm going to the Zoo tomorrow! Yippee!!! Will see ya'll soon.

-Newspapers-

2005-06-21T19:30:00.000+08:00

This is me writting someting about my life to make adam happy.
-I had a nice day : )

So anyway....

Hold me while I'm sleeping,
hold me while I lay awake,
embrace me while we are all alone
the first kiss is all it takes.
Surprise me with your love,
when your lips touch mine,
all it takes is your simple touch
and chills run up my spine.
Get me all alone,
and I'll whisper you my dreams,
hopefully at the heat of the moment
you'll understand what they mean.
Lead to what it shouldn't
lead to what it may,
a closer relationship through the mind
and body getting better by the day.
Hugs in the morning,
kisses at night,
I love yous through the phone
no more I hate yous through the fights.
Now your holding me while I'm sleeping,
your holding me like words to a book,
your embracing me while were all alone
and the first kiss was all it took....

By Earl.

2005-06-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

-Demented-

Unstable Emotions inside my head.
My soul unknown to be alive or dead.
Screams of sins temptations ringing in my ears.
Forced to hide emotions, tears and fears.
I feel alone,
My own unwanted feelings I condone.
Breaking my thoughts, unallowing me to think,
I'm on the edge, on my brink.
Immaculate pain,
Never before have i felt the same.
I never express it,
for fear people would jugde it.
None gave me the chance to restart.
I'm slowly being ripped apart.
Unable to bear it any longer,
I'm too distressed and somber.
ABout to break down,
this is where I end, peace unfound.

By: kathy anne lim/katz

2005-06-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

-Monthly Misery-

Why do I feel angry?
Do I have a reason?
Why am I so touchy?
Is this out of treason?

Cold, sweat,
Mood, swings.
Getting worked up Because-
of my dog staring at things?

This is just confusing.
I'm racking my brain.
I'm screaming in my pillow
I can't stand the strain.

Constent stomach aches,
Fighting with my mom.
I feel like punching that
Guy there till he's out numb.

I begin to think that
-I'm going crazy.
Nothing can solve this,
I think i need therapy.

To all you stupid people,
"Kiss my ass!!!!"
........................
Oh right. I forgot.
I'm having my P.M.S

By: Katz/kathy Anne Lim

2005-06-08T10:13:00.000+08:00

-Brunt of my emotions-

Go ahead and assume, continue to spread lies.
stab me harder in the back until my soul dies.
Since I'm allowing you to do it, continue... don't stop...
Coz I can't be bothered anymore to be what i'm not-
just to make you happy. I've been slammed
against the wall again and again, I've been damned.
You talk about me bitching around?
Well I don't care anymore, the brunt of my emotions can't be found.
Honsesty, I'm tired of acting. I'm really good at that.
But no one wants to act in front of friends -that's a fact.
My assumptions have been questioned, I've been accused before.
I've given people reason to hate me all the more.
So won't you just cut me a little slack?
Coz responsibilties and My mom's come on my back.
Not you guys are my only problem,
and it's taking a mighty long time to solve them.
I know i've got true friends, I've taken them for granted.
But these are the people I live for, they make me feel wanted.
They were by my side when things were grim.
But I know I can't always depend on them -sink or swim.
Now all the other betrayers I used to call close,
they ran away and added to the torment, the most-
of the warm feelings i used to know was stripped away,
now my ripped heart was there to stay.
But I've decided not to blame anyone, coz we're only human
and we all make mistakes -anger fummin'.
The truth will surface in the end, Broken hearts will mend.
It takes alot for people to understand-
The likes of me,
most are love deprived blinded, they can't see
No matter what happens, I'll always love you guys.
even through the deception and the lies.
Coz I ain't got the freaking time to hate,
sorry my death day'll be late.
So I've spoken my last statement, I've written my will.
this is the end, my thoughts and heart -sealed.

By Katz/Kathy Anne lim

2005-06-07T11:34:00.000+08:00

-13 years-

13 years you've stayed amute,
unequal to my questionings.
a stubborn innocence played on flute,
Closed, a chiled indulged.
All you've offered me are blank sheets.
A monotony stacked complete.
spelled out in the hatred of hearts thoughts.
Doubts are the cause of my deciet and rejection.
Today, I seek others for my survival,
not to love anymore is hell.
The rain is falling down as diamond tears
as an angruish remembered, a greif compelled-
facing the destruction brought,
as our world spins on greed.
It's hard to believe what you cannot see,
mornings so dark they set like night.
I seek a sunrise to set me free.
But the wind brings darkness,
Hearts frozen in suspense.
A fire is brought back into the sky,
Hence not all hope is lost.
I feel that -I now can fly.
Undamed offerings of the soul.

-katz

2005-05-11T10:56:00.000+08:00

There is no turning back from this unending path of mine,
serpent turning back it stands before my eyes.
To hell and back it will lead me once more.
It's all I have as i stumble in and out of grace.

I walk through the gardens of dying light,
sand cross over rivers deep and dark as the night.
Searching for reasons why time passes by.

With every step I take the less I know myself
and every vow I break on my way towards your heart.
Countless times I've prayed for forgiveness
but God just laughed at my face,
and this path remains.
Leading me into solitude.

I seek through the darkness my way back home.
The journey seems endless but I'll carry on,
the shadows will rise and day will fall
and a night turns into dawn.

After the tears, at this smile
all angels grieve with an envious song.
When looking into strangers eyes-
I know where I belong.

I walk through the gardens of dying lights,
and cross over rivers deep and dark as the night.
Searching for reasons why time passes by.
I seek through the darkness my way back home.
The journey seems endless but I'll carry on.
the shadows will rise and day will fall
and a night turns into dawn.

*Taken from Kegan's friendster profile.

2005-03-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

Easter bunnies

Hello to my fellow friends. Yay! Yesterday was easter! the almighty God has risen from the dead! Had so much trouble choosing what to wear coz my mum reprimanded me no matter what outfit i wore... Jeez. Newae, easter mass was so fun! The musicians played so well, All of us sang well (obviously) and the small lil' kiddie's were so totally adorable. haha... like angels (ding!-points to head like a halo) haha... only those who went for the mass'd get that. haha... Yay! we exchanged easter eggies and I got a really nice one from my buddy renee... wheee!!! Thank you! we had chocolate ice cream after that and valerie,iggy and i walked all the way to st stevens... haha... When we saw all the people in the hall we ghot scared and started to walk away... hahaha... so igg's took valerie and i on a tour of his former school haha... Iggy and i went into a classroom and saw all the kids drawings and stuff... haha... Then when We came back down, Everyone was dispersed haha... I saw tara,Lyn n sonya ahahah... Hearing that the con thing was acctually very boring... haha...
Today was kinda fun too... Singing and exchanging egg's... haha... I brought my harmonica to school and Pitched the highest notre that made nisha laugh and evryone stare... haha... my manito is so adorable... She sent me 20 pieces of tiny paperand finally saying she didn't bring my eggy... hahaha... But it was just so cute... I still dunno who it is tho... I'll know tomorrow when she gives it to me. wheee..... rar.... SO many people, so many problems... SOmetimes you've got to give them slack. -katz

Unsurvival

2005-03-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

-Hello to my freaky darlings-

Heya dudes! I'm so so so sorry i never update much really, but i'll do my best aight? Anyway... I've been caught up with writting poems, Sing much more than usual and practising for 2.4. I always get worked up on months like these... haha.... School was ok... Seriously can't keep my eyes open in mrs Ooi's class... "GURLZZZZ.... YUR VORK IChSSS PATHHHEEEEEEEETICCC!!!!"-Screams in high pitched voice in impression of mrs Ooi... And next time... If Mrs teo says-"Girls... If you want to talk... you can get out of the class!!!" I think that the whole class should walk out together.... Mrs lou and Mrs wong wasn't in So the class had four periods of freedom running around, screaming and copying homework. not bad... Tara and angeline were playing bingo -crosses eyes... Anyway... Ton's going to malaya today with the rest of the bunch of sec 3's from his school... I'll be having to look for other stuff to do soon... like jumping around and going night swimming to pass my time... So whoever you are.... You know that I'll be extra free... So message or call me!!! Now!!! roar... hahahaha... nah... Looking for where ppl can buy terret cards or whatchamacallit.... any one has info? I know how to play worms two now!!!!! and thank you to Aaron for helping me to destroy ryan at it... Hi 5 dude!!! hahaha.... Kim,Dyni n me had a fun time annoying our chinese teach today... Anyway.. I think my chinese tution teach is so cool.... She tatooed the eyeliner markings on her eyes and her eyebrows..... hahaha... Funky!!!!!! I'm going mad here.... Someone call me!!!!............................YAY!!!! Success!!!! Thank you Meagan!!!! roar... anyway peeps.... I shall chat with my saviour now... seeya round!!! -katz

-Almost-

2005-01-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

-2005-

Boredom has devoured me. Yay! 00.00! I can call Mr ton and scream good morning in his ears. Haven't blogged for ages and ages, My fingers have become clumsily slow at the keyboard. Everyone's gone off sleeping... And I shall too soon. Let's fill peeps up on 2005 shall we? Lets go.
Sec 1's-Mainly nice ppl... a handful of geekazoids but not too bad... Most of them are fun to trang around with.
Sec 2 life-Stress cramped... I have my psl badge! n Intan, Priscilla,Val,Nelly n i are junior com members! -grinz... Funny mix of teachers this yr...
Had to write a chinese comp on "My deepest Darkest secret"... Tara wrote that she was les, Heard that lorretta wrote she had a crush on a teacher, I wrote about-Why I hate writting chinese compo's. And I cried writting it too... Don't ask why... I'm at the Brunt of my expressions lately.
Been going to a party every weekend this entire yr so far, hope it continues, Soon a record will be broken somewhere. Christmas n holi's wasn't too bad... Millions of parties to go to. Godpa juniors, Rg activities, Daryl's beach party thing etc. Refer to ppl linked to me's blog if you wanna know how it went n stuffarooza.
Russell, Daryl, Audrey n Sheryl's birthday cummin up... gee... I've got loads of pressies ta buy.. haha... Well.. I'll Catch You dudes round the bush soon enough. Seeyaz... -katz.

-Brunt of my expressions-

2004-12-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

In Memory of Anyone Unknown to Me

At this particular time
I have no one Particular person to grieve for,
though there must Be many,
many unknown ones going to dust

Slowly, not remembered for what they have done
Or left undone. For these,
then, I will grieve Being impartial,
unable to deceive.

How they lived, or died, is quite unknown,
And, by that fact gives my grief purity--
An important person quite apart from me
Or one obscure who drifted down alone.

Both or all I remember, have a place.
For these I never encountered face to face.
Sentiment will creep in.
I cast it out Wishing to give these classical repose,

No epitaph, no poppy and no rose
From me, and certainly no wish to learn about
The way they lived or died.
In earth or fire

They are gone.
Simply because they were human,
I admire.

2004-11-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

World Wide Teams

Appleby Arrows Robes: Pale Blue with silver arrow Site of Origin: Northern England
Ballycastle Bats Robes: Black with scarlet bat across chest Site of Origin: Northern Ireland
Caerphilly Catapults Robes: Vertically striped Light Green and Scarlet
Chudley Cannons Robes: Orange with speeding cannon ball on front and double C's on back Information: Ron's favorite team.
Falmouth Falcons Robes: Dark-Grey and white with a falcon head on the chest
Holyhead Harpies Robes: Dark-Green with Golden talons on chest Site of Origin: Welsh
Kenmare Kestrels Robes: Emerald Green with two K's back to back on chest Site of Origin: Ireland
Montrose Magpies
Pride of Portree Robes: Deep purple with Gold star on chest Site of Origin: Isle of Skye
Puddlemere United Robes: Navy Blue bearing the club emblem of two crossed Golden bulrushes
Tutshill Tornados Robes: Sky Bule with a Dark Blue T on front and back Site of Origin:
Wigtown Wanderers Robes: Blood red with a silver meat cleaver on the chest Site of Origin:
Wimbourne Wasps Robes: Yellow and Black horizontally striped with wasp on on chest Site of Origin:
Former Beater: Ludo Bagman
Ireland
Seeker: Aiden LynchKeeper:
RyanBeater: QuigleyBeater:
ConnolyChaser: MulletChaser: TroyChaser: Moran
Bulgaria
Seeker: Viktor Krum
Keeper: ZografBeater: Volkov
Beater: Vulchanov
Chaser: LevskiChaser: DimitrovChaser: Ivanova
Vratsa Vultures- seven time European Cup winners
Quiberion Quafflepunchers- wear pink robes
Heidelburg Harriers- famous captain Darren O'Hare
Bigonville Bombers- top goal scorers
Braga Broomfleet- new Beater marking system
Grodzisk Goblins- gave us best Seeker ever Josef Wronski
Motohora Macaws wear red, yellow, and blue robes
Thundelawa Thunderers- huge rivalry with Woologong Warriors
Woologong Warriors- fierch rivalry with Thundelawa Thunderers
Patonga Proudsticks- held Montrose Magpies to a draw
Tchamba Charmers- masters of reverse pass
Gimbi Giant Slayers- 2 time winners of All-Africa Cup
Sumbawong Sunrays- have great formation
Moosejaw Meteorites- from Canada
Haileyburg Hammers- from Canada
Stonewall Stormers- from Canada
Sweetwater All-Stars- beat Quafflepunchers in 16 day thriller
Fitchburg Finches- Won US Cup 7 times
Tarapoto Treeskimmers- recently toured Europe
Toyashi Tengu- from Japan
Gorodok Gargoyles- from Lithuania
Transylvania Information: Slaughtered England in The Quidditch World Cup 390 - 10.
England Information: Was crushed by Transylvania 390 - 10 in The Quidditch World Cup.
Uganda Information: Beat Wales.
Wales Information: Lost to Uganda.
Luxemborg Information: Slaughtered Scotland.
Scotland Information: Killed by Luxemborg.
Peru Information: Was flattened by Ireland in the semifinals.

2004-11-11T13:57:00.000+08:00

The Oyster

There was an Oyster
Whose story I tell,
Who found that some sand
Had got into his shell.

It was only a grain,
But it gave him great pain.
For oysters have feelings
Although they're so plain.

Now did he berate
The harsh workings of fate
That had brought him
To such a deplorable state?

Did he curse at the government,
cry for election,
or claim that the sea
Should have given him protection?

No-He said to himself
As he lay on a shell,
Since i cannot remove it,
I shall try to improve it.

Now the years have rolled around,
As the years always do,
And he came to his ultimate
Destiny-Stew.

And the small grain of sand
That had troubled him so
Was a beautiful pearl
All richly aglow.

Now the tale has a moral;
For isn't it grand
What an Oyster can do
With a morsel of sand?

What couldn't we do
If we'd only begin
With some of the things
That get under our skin.

2004-11-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

Growing n Going

I'm leaving now to slay the foe,
To fight the battles, high and low.
I'm leaving mother, hear me go,
Wish me luck as walk away.

I've grown my wings, I wanna fly,
Sieze my victories where they lie.
I'm going mom but please don't cry,
Just let me find my place to stay.

I want to see and touch and hear,
Though there are dangers and I have fears.
I'll smile my smile and dry my tears,
Please let me speak my say.

I'm off to find my world my dreams,
carve my niche, sew my seams,
Remember, as i sail my streams,
That I'll love you, All the way.

Ps. Hey everyone! I'd just like to remind ya'll that my youth grp Rg is having a Fund raiser cum recruitment drive in the foyer and canteen of church o.l.p.s... We're selling food, Singing and dancing... And we're all wearing black t-shirts with lil sticker name tags on em... You could help us my donating Because we need money For our mission trip to Australia... Or You could Join us n Be part of A passionate Youth group Who Serves and spreads the word of God through Music, Drama, Dance and the Arts... Besides Church Activities, We also Have our own fun! The Last day is tmr, Sun-7th November... So Please support us! Or even better, Join us!!! Love ya'll! - katz

2004-11-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever i may go,
In case i need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show.
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do - that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid that I might actually loose you.

I'd like to remove all my paint coats,
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand- that
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you'll be patiesnt n close your eyes,
I'll strip off my paint coat colours slow.
You gotta understand how much it hurts
To let the real me Show.

Now all the colours are Off.
I feel foolish, bare and cold.
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You're my friend, As pure as Gold.

But i still need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case someone doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my Kin
And thanks for loving me true
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Till I learn to love me too...

2004-10-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

Dreads

I've gotten Caught up in dread locks about 10 mins ago... Thanks to a certian someone... haha... Especially how ya make em... It's pretty kewl! Hahahaha... Lets see... I won't be very good at this but i'll try to explain eh? hahaha... So here goes..... -ahem....
It takes a lil wurk to make dreadlocks happen in straight hair, but you can handle it. I'll try to give you some tips and instruction and see if I can help you sport some phatty dreadlocks asap! Dreadlocks are prolly the koolest hair style ever. Chicks dig'em on dudes, Dudes are all about'em on Chicks... theyre just pretty kool... First of I gotta say that dreadlocks are not dirty like sum missled peoples believe. Sure, they can be dirty, but so can you hair when its straight. It's just a matter of how you take care of it. You can use dread wax to start your dreads and they will be totally washable. No need to let that shizz get all rank. Dreadlocks actually tighten faster when you keep'em clean. There's two things that you never ever wanna submit your dreadies to: Conditioners or Combing.. After you start your dreads you won't comb or brush your hair, the idea of a dreadlock is that the hair gets tangled and knotted, then after a lil while the knots get tighter and smooth out into a dread. You can help this process a lot by 1) knotting the hair up to start -and- 2) Using the right stuff to hold the knots together in that crucial time when they are "locking up". The knotting can be done with a fine tooth comb, any will wurk as long as its really strong. Metal pet combs are great cuz they won't break no matter how hard you pull on'em. The proccess of dreading up this hair, or knotting it up really, (the dreadlocks happen after you wax it) is called backcombing. You backcomb the hair by grabbing a bundle of it (usually about the size of ur finger) and sliding the comb tward your head.
You bunch up the hair as tight as you can get it. Its best to have a friend help you. Its even better if ur friends gettin dreads too. That way you can help each other out. So you tangle the hair up with tha comb like you are teasing it but you pack it in real tight. It's ok if you don't totally understand this cuz I'll have a link to a page where its explained really well later, this is just to give you the jist of the whole dreads making process. So you get it knotted up into a shape that looks like a dreadlock, it's knot really a dreadlock yet though. Dreads take time, this is preparing your hair to dread. Dredlocks cannot be made overnight, no matter what you do you'll need to give the hair time before it will form dredlocks. Dredlocks is a process and these methods make dredlocks turn out great over and over.
If you do this stuff right you're gunna have sweet ass lookin dreadlocks in about 4 or 5 weeks. If you just leave the hair alone and don't wash it or comb it, hoping it will turn into dredlocks, it usually takes about 7 to 8 months before you have dreads. You'd prolly end up cutting it all off long before that thought cuz it would look frizzy and wack the whole time and itch like a bitch cuz you didn't wash it. So the secret is use dread wax. Using the wax you can keep them clean and they will look good while they are locking...and of course they lock way faster. One quick caution to all you cats runnin for the toothpaste right now... Don't play scientist with your hair. You can really damage your scalp by experimenting with random house hold products trying to make dreads. People try peanut butter, toothpaste, eggs, polyurithane, gum, normal beeswax, honey, mollasses, and about a zillion other things... none of the shit works and its makes your head nasty and itchy. Some things will actually dammage your hair folicles and you'll go bald at 25..don't play, use only approved hair products. The best one by far is called Dread Head. They make other stuff thats good for dreads too like dread soap, and somthin to help your dreads tighten faster. But any way, back to our story...
After you get the hair knotted into the shape that you want you put rubberbands on each dredlock. Put one on the tip(end) of each dreadlock and one on the root)base of each dread. The root one you'll take off in a few weeks, the tip one you can leave on there, the dredlock will swallow it as it grows and leave you with a nice round tip. Ok, now you gett'em secured, its time to wax'em up. Use a hair dryer to heat the dreads as ya wax them. This way the wax melts into the dread where it does the most good and the out side of the dreadlock won't feel waxy. Take about 1/2 a finger tip full and squeeze and rub and twist it into each dredlock. Keep goin till you got all the dreadlocks waxed. Ok, so you got a phatty head-o-locks, now what...well DUH..go sport'em! If you used a quality wax they should look cool as hell right after you do'em so go clubbin or sumthin and show'em off! So how about taking care of your new dreadlocks? Well thats not to hard either, you need to keep them clean...wash them about every 5 days or so. Put a panyhose nylon over your head while you wash them for the first few weeks. Wash them through the nylon with it on you head the whole time. This will keep the dreads from loosening, dreadlocks are delicate for the first month or so. What you wash them with is really important. Some shampoos and soap have conditioners, moisterizers and other additives to make the hair smell like apples or feel soft.....well all that stuff really sux for dreadlocks. Things that the soap leaves behind can build up inside of you dreds and loosen them over time. Eventually it can evern destroy the locks you wurked so hard for. What you need to get is a soap that doesn't leave anything behind in your hair. The HQ has some soap that wurks great on dreadlocks. Its very approprately called dread soap. It's good stuff. Whatever you do, don't ever use conditioners on your locks, it will kill'em fast. There are a few things you can do to help your dreads tighten faster. First and foremost is of course Twistin'&Rollin'. The more you twist and roll your dreads between you fingers and palms, the faster they will tighten. Do it all the time... twist those dredlocks ridin in the car, twist those dreadlocks sittin in class, twist those dredlocks while youre crappin' aroun on tha net, twist those dredlocks while youre fallin asleep... you get the idea. One thing that wurks really well for tightening dredlocks is the ocean. Dunk your dreadlocks twice a week if you can. Dunk'em and let them dry in the sun... it helps sooo much. If you don't have an ocean handy you can get stuff called "locking accelerator". It works just as good or better than the ocean and you don't even have to get sand in your undies....
Ah well............ Omg! I just typed a whole entry on dreadlocks?!!!! What is Wrong with me?!!!I have no intention on doing dreads tho.... I am so weird... So yea.... Happy Trying!!! -katz

2004-10-17T13:56:00.000+08:00

Feeling better

This is so amazing... I ACCTUALLY am feeling better... things have been so screwed up lately... Ah well.. Life HAS got it's ups and down's... This yr's proberbly been the most crappy for me.... Ah well... I gotta deal with it... Ryan (bro) is gonna teach me how ta play snooker and pool... He's great at those kinda games... He said he'll teach me how ta trash guys too... Which i totally don't think is possible coz I tried yesterday and i Suck at it... Holi's r cummin! and my mom's not been letting me go out alone due to *ahem* some reasons.... SO i hope she'll change her mind by e holi's... Going out with cecilia! I so haven't seen her for such a long time.... Unforgettingly... I'm going to see 'a sharks tale' too... with Nathalie, Angeline, Clarissa n Tara maybe... not too sure... But maybe these holi's will be unforgettable... Like This yr.... Totally Drama packed.... and you know what i realised?... I've lost my paintbrush... Bloody hell... It's one of tjose paintbrushes with the camel hair crap that's so expensive too... ARGH!... this so sux.... I've given Lynette back her Jacket yesterday... She, son n me are So gonna go shopping during e holi's... I hopefully will find a black skirt... Somthing which I've been wanting since forever.... Ah well.... With pleats or none are good... I just want a bloody Black skirt... Ya'll know what I found out? Beckham is having an affair with his wife's beautician.... how Screwed up can that possiby get?! my gawd... he so sucks..... N He's balding too!... Proberbly due to the use of too much Gel in his hair... Stupid freak.... He used to be real good last time in Man U... now he's old n stuff... so i guess some of his talent has flown away... WHy on earth am I talking about a soccer player?!!! What is Wrong With me?!!! This is a sign to show that I'm screwed... Ah well.. Wish me luck in living.... byeez ya'll....

Unlock the second Prison

2004-10-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

Confessions

All ya'll peeps know what i'm talking about right? Due to previous events n stuff... Just wanted ta say that I'm disapointed in myself too... Even tho it Was along time ago... I just had no right to... Having one of my more sucky days... and it just seems to get worse as the time passes... With each day worse then the one before... Feeling guilty.... proberbly coz i Am guilty... Angry at some... Frustrated at stuff.... ah well... I suppose God's given up on me... Have a great day ya'll who reading this.... Have a great day....

Curse Private books

2004-10-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

I'm angry at the ppl who took my book... No mood to blog... Bye... -Katz

2004-10-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

The Titanic Walnut...

Heya peeps... been writting loads in my pinkish book n stuffaroo lately, sometimes i forget i even have a bloody blog in the first place... Well today was history exam... totally n extremely crapified. Everyone said it was tough and my mom simply refuses to believe me... ah well... Chinese listening was even worse... i didn't even understand the whatever they said and practically only the last story which was about a boy and a swan -rolls eyes*... Newae... after school n all Tara, Angeline, Nelly, Clarissa n i went to 'Haagen Dazs' to eat n all... That was really funny.... I tried to hide from Tara n Nelly in order to scare em but in the end I got a scraped Knee and a cut on my finger coz i fell down... bwahahahhaa - shoots self in head*... then we took a bus to siglap n all And Everyone had a hard hard choice on asking where to eat... And everyone made a racket of noise while i was talking to my momma... so we ended up at Haagen Dazs where it was so high class n all but we noisey ppl were making so much of noise... we had Brownies with vanilla n butterscotch icecream, Waffels with Chocolate ice-cream n choc fudge n walnuts n whipped cream, there was a bananna split with three different kinds of ice-cream And the was a mega milkshake with ice-cream n whipped cream n all... haha... Gosh... We're all gonna get fat... hahaha... well after the remaining ice-cream had melted... It sorta became an ice cream soup which flooded the plate haha... Nathalie started playing with it and I added the walnut as a boat on the Melted Ice-cream So we played..... "Titanic!!!" hahhaa.... Typical Immature Kcians.... We wanted to Take photo's too but we didn't have a camera... So we used Angeline's Phone and Damn was it hard! haha... We had to stick the phone in between the two chairs n use the timer thingy... occasionally causing us to look weird after posing for 10 seconds... Cheekbones Hurt... haha... Then all Five of us squished into the toilet and Finally we managed to take a decent photo of all of ourselves with the help of the mirror... haha.... That's proberbly the first meal we all had together other than School food or mac's... hahahaha... well, we're all going out together after exams next thursday... hahaha... n spending so quality Girl time together... Wheeeeeee!!! hahaha... I went to kims house for an hour coz the was no tution and i called my dad n all... She, Ian n I Were using the seeds of some tree and Throwing em to each other n the person holding the plastic bottle was supposed to hit the seeds with the bottle n all that rubbish... hahahhahaa..... Then we had to hula hoop across the road, touch the green gate, skip 5 times, Run to the black gate, hula-hoop back across the road n touch kims neighbours house, then back to kims house - weirdo's.... hahaha... but today was fun... Spent loads of quality time with my gal friends n all... hahaha.... Something i haven't done in sometime i suppose that's why it feels good hahaha.... ah well... can't wait for exams to be over.... n there are 23 days till i can collect my hp... ahahha... Ah well... I hope to slack n drink more.... catch up with those peeps who i haven't exactly been seeing but who've played important roles in my life such as Marvin n Cecilia n all.... hahhaa... Got 2 concerts ta go to during the holiday's too... wheeeeeeeee! ah well i gtg i suppose... seeya'll round...

The Joyful Mysteries

2004-10-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

I want a love that'll last

I want a little, somthing more.
don't want the middle or the one before,
I don't desire a complicated past.
I want a love that will last.

Say that you love me,
say I'm the one.
don't kiss and hug me,
and then tread along.
I don't do drama,
my tears don't fall fast.
I want a love that will last.

I don't want Just a memory,
give me forever.
Don't even think about saying goodbye.
Coz I Just want one love to be enough,
and remain in my heart till i die.

So,
Call me romantic,
I guess that is so.
There is somthing more that,
you'd ought to know.
I'd never leave you,
So don't even ask.
I want a love that'll last.

Forever,
I want a love that'll last.

I don't want just a memory,
Give me forever.
Don't even think about saying goodbye.
Coz I just want one love to be enough,
and remain in my heart till i die.

So,
There's just a little,
more then i need.
I just want to share em,
the air that you breathe.
I'm not the kinda girl,
who complicates the past.
I want a love that'll last.

Forever,
I want a love that'll last.

Always,
I want a love that'll last.

oh oh oh,
I Just want a love,
that'll last.

2004-09-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

I'd just want to remind everyone that My phone will be confiscated for a month so don't sms or call me on my hp yea? thanks byeez!- Kathy/Kitty/kit-kat/Kutz/Katz....

2004-09-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

The Emotional Roller Coster.

Well I suppose here i go again, another day of my killing myself inside. Listening to songs like 'far behind-candlebox','Eels-I need some sleep' and 'It's a motherf**ker-Eels'.... Particularly sad songs which always bring me to a state of utmost depression. And to think, just this afternoon i was having a great time fooling around with good pals... somthing just HAD to change that I suppose. I guess i'm supposed to be happy about it. But I guess that it's been way too long since i've been havin that feeling, I took the blow the first time, second, third, fourth and nows the fith. I guess that it can't hold much longer. I've got to say that it's proberbly been the worst year of all to me. Too many roller-coster rides with different people have gotten me confused, down, annoyed, angry and in a worse state than i've known before. And just like all roller coster rides, once you take too many, You just get sick. Now's the case that i'm just sick and tired of everything. Ppl see me in mac's, school, church whatever. Wearing my happy face, a mask which cover's myself, the wonder's of pretending seems to fascinate me mentally. As usual with my phrase of versatile expressions. Truth is, I have a huge habit of covering up my sadness, worries, tearings, hurt, pain etc. with joy, happiness and laughter. A habit which i've held for a long long time. A darkness seems to be overpowering me very strongly. Suppose it's time for me to go to confession. And somehow, i believe that that very same Dark power, are my ghosts of past and present. Stupid things that seem to cling and add to my horrible state no matter what i do. That's what i get I suppose... for being such an idiot. without special ppl in this crap filled world, i've already have hung or suffocated myself a long long time ago. And to everyone, the church a wonderful place, don't abuse it. I suppose I'm still young, and proberbly haven't had the full taste of the world. And whatever that taste is.... I know for a fact it'll be bitter, with only a few sprinkles of sweetness... sweetness-The blessed things in our lives. Love my dear friends.... Gives us the will to keep on being alive.

The masks of Joy and Happiness

2004-09-21T15:32:00.000+08:00

I sat,
watching him walk by.
He never seemed to notice,
He didn't seem to care.
But that was nothing new.
Not more then 2 yrs I've sacrificed,
covered up,
fought for him.
but he still doesn't know how much pain,
suffering and hardship i've gone through for him.
He used to make me happy,
somehow,
and always brightened up my day.
He made me feel whole,
complete,
Perfect.
In my own way.
I thought i had the same effect on him too,
turned out that i could have been wrong.
He used me,
Abused me,
Made me feel sick just thinking of it.
But,
I suppose i did let him take advantage of me.
I played along,
pretending and refusing to know.
but then I realised,
got to my senses.
I refused,
rejected,
and that's good i suppose.
But why do i still feel this way.
He used me,
taught me.
why do i still tear myself to sleep every night?
hurt myself for a useless asshole like him.
It was my heart screaming in pain,
for the mere thought of him not knowing how i feel.
He was there to confort.
to heal my wounds of a tourmented heart.
But now there was no one-
who listened.
Then I forgave and forgot.
still even with the scars,
the scars of one searching for an answer to all.
and peace was made,
between the lord and I.
Now he's worse off.
We don't talk.
All my 'friends' are now the one's he talks laugh's with etc.
and all i get are the memories of how we were before.
He's a retard.
as for all i ment to him,
was nothing.
and all he ment to me,
was everything in the world.
But yet,
It pains.
And i still feel as though he's a part of me.
a part of me that will never come back.
but now it seems as though i've found that piece,
that's possibly just as amazing and wonderful.
and it seems that i'm the one this time who had him hurt.
But i'll never make that same mistake again.
I swear.
But why you ask?
Why did i put up with everything he did?
It's because,
he was the first,
who made me feel
Love.

2004-09-19T08:34:00.000+08:00

Mr Bump

Morning... been a week or 2 since i've acctually written a whole blog... Been tied up and shacked like crazy. It's 8:37 on a fine sunday morning. On thursday, 16th sept. We celebrated nathalie anne Galisten's real birthday and to all those who didn't hear about her other birthday party.... Well, It was just awsome. Shan't go to detail... so you can hear about it from other ppl's blog's like fuzzy, Daryl etc. Back to thrusday.... We (Angeline, clarrissa, Nathalie, Taralyn and I) went to mac's. we bought her a slice of tiramisu cake which Ryan Tan in the end ate. Possibly as he didn't have any money to eat in the first place. Anyway, we bought the slice of cake and stuck a single candle on it then walked into mac's and sang a loud happy birthday to nathalie, which obviosly made her malu... How wonderful friends we are... haha... oh well... friday was pretty normal.. accept that I went to watch "Bourne supremacy" (I can't spell) with my parents.... pretty kewl show... Bout spies n stuff.... The camera scene's would make ya dizzy But the storyline n all is awsome... Saturday... drama- we had to do a different version of 'little red riding hood'.... I ended up being the rock-pink-haired-carnivourous-vampire-grandma... and just from that... I suppose you could guess how wacky MY grp's story was.... dance.... Learned a kicking thing.... It's too confusing to mention... went novena and cat class where we learned the ministries of the church n all.... Somthing I found out... Nai n lyn r together! *applauses* after so bloody long n all.... Finally. then harsha, alex, alexcia, wesley n me were downstairs... at first i was sitting by myself and writting my secret shit n all n then harsha n wesley being nice wonderful ppl came to accompany me... Then we scratched certian stuff away from a certian table in church... To all those reading this.... Don't ever write stuff on the tables... Don't ever write stuff like eg." shit+vomit= etc." It's just not nice... ppl who see that or what happens if even she/he sees that... how the hell is that person gonna feel? What if someone wrote that about you? Even though you really hate the person ot wad it's just unreasonable understand? but if you write things like eg."Let's go to the prata shop..." that can....... nobody's stopping you... but not things about real people... It scars. anyway... had a wonderful buffet at mandrin hotel for my dad's birthday n all... haha... was damn good. I'm going to church later.... R.G's gonna sing for 1.30 or 2 mass.... and i gtg early to choose a skirt from harsha... Coz i have no nice one's of my own.... Oh well... gtg n all.. Stay sweet ppl... stay sweet...

MR Tickle

2004-09-06T14:23:00.000+08:00

EVERYONE.... Please note that daryl is famous thanks to Me... please refer to my earlier Blog. Thanks to glorious and marvellous me.

2004-08-31T17:56:00.000+08:00

Hyperventalation

Greetings mad ppl... this is the first time in a long long time i'm blogging on my own account so clap! anyway... I'm pissed coz of yesterday, a certian people read MY TOP SECRET BOOK! bloody angry.... today was teachers day and aces day.... we did some really funny work out which even all the teachers had to do... and Mr juraimi was looking like some weird dancer.... I mean... all the teachers looked like they were about to collapse or somth.... ahhaha.... oh welll then we had the danceathon stuff... ahahhaa..... YOu don't wanna know wad happened ther....... wahahahahahahahhaa..... gawd.... anyway..... we visited kcp!!!! yey!!!! and i saw miss chia n all... how lovely...... gave then lil flowers with notes attatched to them n all.... ahahahah.... then Fuzzy, alyssa,Eernie n me went out to tm..... my gosh... those peeps can get ultra the kukoo.... me n fuz singing songs loudly in public..... then we went to toysaurus where me n Eernie played netball.... then we made one of those window sticky things.... ahahha.... you noe one of those retarded kiddy things?! ahhahahaha.... my gawd.... it was so lame.... But yea, fun la.... then there was this guy who juz came up to us and stole the liquid making thing!!! omg!!! right in front of our faces! we were part of a crime!!! argH!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahhaa... we told the lady of the shop and she was like..... "it's ok sweetie, it happens all the time....".... she was so calm!!!! unlike we mad kcians.... ahahhaa..... then we wanted to take neo's..... ok.......... so we lined up and alll coz the que was really long.... but JUST as we were reaching the counter.... We decided to take out our money to get ready to pay..... but What happens? Fuzzy can't find her wallet... so here she and i go.... looking around the whole place, walking around the entire place but we still can't find it.... so fuzzy gets me all stressed n all and so we couldn't take neo's..... so we told alyssa to get out of the que...... once we walk a little further...... fuzzy takes somthing out of her bag and exclains.... "I found my wallet!" Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I started hyperventalating......... then we went up to 77th street to look at stuff.... ahahha... I saw loads of von dutch things..... n tried on a nice green mash Cap which was also von dutch and super nice!!! Alyssa said it looked nice on me! but........ unfortunately......... I couldn't buy it coz i only had 6 dollars in my pocket... ahahha..... nvm..... then fuzzy bought star earings n all.... hahaha.... the once cute guy at 77th street has gone fat...... AH!!!! (screams)..... how sad tooo...... I remember i've had an impossible crush on him since pri 5..... but not anymore.... whhahahaha... it ends TODAY! ah welll... then we grab food from mac's n go home..... hahaha.... oh yea! Anthea's reporter friend called me and asked me on information on bands and stuff coz once me and anthea were talking about bands in singapore so i told her i've got quite a few friends who are in bands n stuff.... so this newsporter person wanted to make an article about it.... so I directed her to Alex Chan and Daryl Tan coz those ppl have got pretty good Band background n all..... Daryl being a drummer in many bands since last year or somthing who's got solid rythems.... and Alex having played guitar for more then a year and havong billions of groups who she plays with and alll.... so this reporter person thanked me nicely and said that she wanted to interview them for the straits times and stuff.... haha.... alex told me that this debbie reporter person wants to interview her at some place and even bring photographers and stuff.... ahahha.... i don't know if she's called dazz yet.... maybe i'll ask him if he goes online or somth... alex is sared about the whole interview thing tho and her mommy told her not to go........ i dunnno.... but she was thinking of directing the reporter to kyns-ley instead coz he's got much more of a solid base and his band is pretty succesful too coz they write songs n stuff which i think is a pretty good idea as welll.... mmmmm.... welll... I just did a good deed and helped peeps get famous.... wheee! anyway gotta run..... seeya round....

Mr Chatterbox = Warren

2004-08-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

Teenwitch in the house evacute Immidiately!!!

Hey all u peeps again! wussup?!! wheeeeeeeee....... chinese exam today. I couldn't understand a word the stupid paper said... whahahha. so anyway... It's obvious i'm gonna fail THAT subject yar? hahaha... doin' some look up on history now... about indus valley civilisations and shang dynastys and stuff.... boring..... *snorez*... newae... tara want's to cut her hair bang style... kewl yar? whahahaha... oh yea! when i went to school today everyone noticed a pink streak in moi hair *grinz*... whahaha... due to the thing me and kimmy were playin with yesterday. and ton's hair look liked one of those ppl from those punk bands after me and kimmy did the "dyin" process on his hair... hahahhaa... He's brave yar? oh well... toady... mRs Goh was lookin' at our arms and makin' sure we don't cut ourselves or somth. pretty dumb.... I think only really problematic ppl cut themselves... and sometimes it's for stupid stupid reasons... so yar... wahahaa... me, nicole,diana,hadya n kelly were makin' a fool of ourselves in the science lab for maness reasons obviously...w ahahha... Singing and dancing and nicole wth her sickness whahahahhaaaaa........ It's contagous!!! wheeeeeeeee...... newae.. in the music room tooo she drew that nike slogan on the board and instead of the tick logo... she drew a sperm.... whahahahahah.... madness man... anyway... me, angeline n tara doin' our physic thing. very fun.... eunice got freaked again... and i passed by a site featuring witchcraft and stuff... they've got spell's on everything! even on 'revenge'...... *evil grin* but nah.... I think it's pretty stupid... but the thing is......... it really works... I just cast one. wahahahaahahha.... *evil witch laugh*(oh yes!!! and congratulations to my music teach!!! she's expecting!!!!)

Wiccan Law

Bide the Wiccan laws ye must,
in perfect love and perfect trust.
Live and let live—fairly take and fairly give.
Cast the Circle thrice about to keep all evil spirits out.
To bind the spell every time,
let the spell be spake in rhyme.
Soft of eye and light of touch—speak ye little,
listen much.
Deosil go by the waxing Moon—sing and dance the Wiccan Rune.
Widdershins go when the Moon doth wane,
and the werewolf howls by the dread wolfsbane.
When the Lady’s Moon is new,
kiss the hand to Her times two.
When the Moon rides ar Her peak,
then your heart’s desire seek.
Heed the North wind’s might gale—lock the door and drop the sail.
When the wind comes from the South,
love will kiss thee on the mouth.
When the wind blows from the East,
expect the new and set the feast.
When the West wind blows o’er thee,
Single spirits restless be.
Nine woods in the Cauldron go—burn them quick and burn them slow.
Elder be ye Lady’s tree—burn it not or cursed ye’ll be.
When the Wheel begins to turn,
let the Beltane fires burn.
When the Wheel has turned to Yule,
light the Log and let Pan rule.
Heed ye flower,
bush and tree — by the Lady blessed be.
Where the rippling waters go,
cast a stone and truth ye’ll know.
When ye are in dire need,
hearken not to others’ greed.
With the fool no season spend,
or be counted as his friend.
Merry meet and merry part — bright the cheeks and warm the heart.
Mind the Threefold Law ye should — three times bad and three times good.
When misfortune is enow,
wear the blue star on thy brow.
True in love ever be,
unless thy lover’s false to thee.
Eight words the Wiccan Rede fulfill — an ye harm none,
do what ye will.

2004-08-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

Sky to the fireworks! *salutes*...

Heya all! I'm soooo syked. first signs of birthday presents... wheeee... whahaha.... yesterday me n my family n all went out to eat at kenny rodgers and stuff. Really good food. love the chicken and the cheezeeeee..... oooooooooooohhhhhhhh..... is simply lovely... bought the latest issue of w.i.t.c.h mag. I know it's such a kiddie magazine but it's just so nice! whahahaha... my bro wanted to buy me VAns Off the wall shoes!! YEY!!! but unfortunately..... *sigh* they're too nice.... I think i'd juz buy them and never use them sorta thing...w hahaha... Saw some converse shoes to.......... I wAnt a converse shoe.... blah.... But if any of u peeps get it for me I really won't accept it. and I don't care if you waisted ur money. I Just WOn't accept it... It's not worthy of me. *cries* whahahah... 9th of aug today. lynette is soo happy today too coz it's "ahem's" birthday... whahhaa... watched the ndp juz now... pretty nice... as it always is... whahaa.. and the fireworks were so kewl! gets me everytime.... they're so majestic and not forgeting romantic... *dreams*.. ooo yea! I have a lovely new cd which I have absolutely fallen in love with. it's The latest album by blink 182.... been listening to it the entire afternoon... 'Roar' and 'Ducky' Acctually came all the way to my house to give it to me! YEY! I love these ppl.. so wonderful. *dances around the room with cd* and daryl has nice spike bands. whahahahha... schweeeeet. ahhhhhhh i feel so good now... my sis juz gave me a back massage... Shiok!!! whahhaha... really relaxed now........ mmmmmmmmm...... lovely... oh yes... I made mac and cheese today! whaahaha... I spilled half the mayo and cheese on the floor, almost burned my hand and thought that luncheon meat was a veggie. wahahahhaa... It was ok in the endtho.... But for now, lets juz say i'm not made for the kitchen...

Quote of the day: "I feel like i'm the only one who doesn't know the truth"

2004-08-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

The spirts within'

Hello all you ppl who normally read my blog and stuff... did nothing the entire day... absolutely boring... I acctually rejected an invation to go to mac's.... Unbelieveable right? yea i noe... and I acctually went straight home. oh well the world works in mysterious ways... so do my feelings... been feeling weirdly unhappy lately.. I don't even know why.... but yesterday was pretty fun. Me and nicole putting eyedrops on each other's eyes and pretending we were crying .. whahaha schweet. then national day today was pretty fun too... singing and all... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........ oh well wad can i say//... I'm still retarded.... oh yes... I'm part of the 'dot-dot' club and the 'retarded society'... dun ask why.... stayed at home the entire day and acctually slept in the afternoon for the first time this ytr... bloody tired... saw some mexican show involving underground porn and some evil spirts rubbish.... these stupid shows are going weirder and weirder as the days go by.... now my back aches... ouch... can't waith till after the exams.... then everyone can slack and enjoy life.... jeez.... life is dumb eh.... Pretty depressed these few days again for even God knows wad reason... whahaha... I really should get out more often and juz stone.... superbly dull being at home and all... I dun even understand why I'm typing this? Mel. wrote a poem on teenage suicidal stuff... I shall be nice and put it here in my blog for her.

Teenage Suicidal
Standing among the crowd,
looking up
there he is,
falling.
vivid memories of our childhood days singing, talking,
taking each day,a blow at a time
but knowing we'd still have each other.
He was a Great guy,
helping me out.
lifting me up,
wiping my tears and fears away.
being there,
just for me,
helping me feel safe,
secure.
To him my emotions poured,
my joys with him shared,
my anger and frustration forgoten,
my life exposed to just him.
He was my companion,
my friend,
my brother.
Then that day had to come,
he held me in his arms,
looked into my eyes like never before,
asked me to be his.
I turned away,
rejected,
refused,
let go.
he called me.
begged me.
emotions built up inside me,as never done before.
i cried.
I cried in pain.
alone.
wondering why he saw me the way he didn't to me.
he said he couldn't take it.
said he had to leave,
that he had to be in a better place
coz he couldn't feel.
He walked over to my flat
pressed 25. on the lift.
He lay a letter at my door
then jumped, like off a cliff.
it read 'i loved you dearly.'
it said 'i loved u so.'
'i've sacrificed so much for you
but you had to let me go.'
'i was there for you night and day,
but yet you couldn't see
that all i wanted was to love u
and for you to love me.
I ended my life today
I guess i could say you knew
It's because i lost the meaning in my life.
The meaning, was you.'

2004-07-29T15:15:00.000+08:00

Chico...

Yoz peepz... kit-kat here... sleepy as usual... wahahahha... newae... yesterday's audition didn't go so bad... sang n all... wheeeee..... newae... Most crap is cleared up... *sighz*... wahahahahha.... Newae... If most of u ppl haven't heard... I'm not going to mac'z till after the exams yar? so dunch need to ask anymore.... I need to concentrate on moi studies miriculousley.... Ahhhhhhh my speeling sux.... oh yea!!!! went to serene's house and omg it's so fun yar!!!! I should go there more often... ppl skating and all, the foods pretty shiok too... wheeee...... No wonder she gets such cute boyfriends... *wink*.... whahahahahahahhaa... nah... My jelly's better then great for me... hehehe... but seriously it's totally fun and the galz there r so nice too... hahhaa... yesterday too... Me and my mom were sitting at swensens and looking at all the cute guyz walkin' past.... whahhahahhaa.... she's got not bad taste yar? and I got $80 for juz sittin', lookin' pretty and sayin "i want chicken rice". SCHweet!! ahhaha.... This acting thing totally rawks... wahahahaha... newae... today i totally rushed in doing chinese hw... howannoyin' my chinese teach really should cut down on the homewaork sial... It's so annoying.... gawd.... newae... Miss Goh showed us another clip on steading and sex and porn for cme... These english lessons are getting weirder and weirder... oh welll.... Was pretty dull tho.... oh yes... miss Goh chose me to me a p.s.l? huh? this is so weird... I mean............ thank gawd i'm a p.s.l and not a prefect.,... newae it's so weird too... but it's fun being one... u get to skip classes!!! whEEEE!!! ahahhahaa.... anyway... when tara asked me from across the class wad miss goh asked me to see her for.... I tripped over genevieve's bag and fell in slow motion on the floor.... whahahahahaha... when I got up, there tara was laughing her head off... whahahhaa... and she couldn't stop for a while so I guess I really must have looked totally ridiculous.... anyway.... me and my sis were throwing a tuna and mayo sandwhich around in the room hahahahahahhahahahahhhhhhaahahhahahahahahaha.,... and now there's a mayo stain right on top of me on the celing....w ahahahahahahhahahaaaa..... I'm so lame.... newae.... SIbling Powerrrr!!! gawd i suck... i'm really thinking of taking my sista's pic off my colladge on friendster.,.. toooo many guyz are askin' me hu she is..... hahahaha.... life is weird yar? oh yes! i keep sleeping on ton-ton on the phone.... I'm really trying to stop it.... But i juz dunno how.... *sighz and shakes head*... Sang songs in the shower juz now and was throwing soap at the wall for fun.... then I cried..... coz soap got in my eye..... ahhhhh.... too all those hu don't know... I'm super spastic....

freakazoid....

2004-07-27T18:29:00.000+08:00

This is getting crucial...

Hi ppl... another pretty dull day... u noe wad? I'm pissed off.... ppl have been going around saying I wanna cut short with jelly! my gawd.... that's practically the stupidest thing i've ever heard... cummon la... hu's the idiot who came up with these ridiculous Statements... so bloody lame... I love my jelly mind u! and I'm in a bad mood with almost all my Guy friends... stupid stupid things.... newae... I DIDN"T SEND CHRIS THOSE MESSAGES! Blah..... SO annoying... I dun even noe who the hell took my phone to message that! i couldn't find my bloody phone for a while and that's all i noe..... ah who cares... but anyway.... I got into an audition... wheeeEEE!!! i'm not sure wad it is yet but all i noe is that i'm going to this place at 4.30 tomorrow.., oh yea... anyone who's interested in attending a "non violent communication workshop this sun 1/8/2004'' may contact me on my mobile.... especially *ahem* those ppl who i've personally talked to about.... byeez!

I'm sinking solo.

2004-07-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

Tempremental Feelings

Hello little homo sapiens who roam the earth. Life as usual was a lil' sucky... but today was super drama.... newae, tara was late for skewl tday and asked me to buy her socks but I was gonna be late tooo... wheee... science we learned about organisms.... how fun... And for pe today was super stupid... teacher was teaching us how to throw balls around the feild... ahahha... how retarded.... Throwing balls around... wheee!!! how fun... I paired up with christene.... someone dropped a chair in the canteen and everyone clapped...was thinkin' up of kids names during art... ahahaha... Came up with kirsten,Zen or Nikki for a girl and Regan, Kai or Dazz for a boy.... I sorta like daryls nick name... Hope he dun mind...but then again... If he dun like the idea.... It shall be Brad...wahahahaha.... ah welll.... life is stupid.... oh yes... recieved the tickets from rory... so excited!!! ahhaha.... SOnya's play, sonya's play... wheeeEEEE!!! ahhahaaha... so happy.... this friday! wheeEEE!!ahhaha... going mad.... oh yea.... then screwed in macs and saw melissa lim... then went to kfc... was with laura,harsha,melissa,ashvin,anton.iggy,shiv,ryan.ryan etc. BRADLEY TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF!!! my gawd... I was so worried.... I almst cried.... Felt like shit... I'm gonna slap him if he ever does that to me again and i'm serious. Choking himself with the tie and all... Scary to death..... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... I hope he dun cut himself again or choke himself or someshit.... But wad i dun understansd is how everyone else can juz stand around and watch him.... my gawd.... Tied himself to the tree and there i was trying to untie the stupid knot.... ......... I really feel like shit....dun feel like writting anymore... byee...

2004-07-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

Totally screwed up life i have...

Hello.... Totally bored... sleepy too... Didn't do much today... school sucked Big time... Bloody boring... Got the stupid chinese newspapers again and this is the third time the cover page was about steading and retarded stuff... Other stupid stuff happened today too... I dun really remember... wad to do... I'm blur... ahhahaha... watched fuzzy during recess today while she was talking about fats and food to her friends..... Really weird.... Lit today was totally stupid too... I played the part of the butler.... Who was supposed to be dead or somth in the cupboard... ah well... hahaha.... Totally weird... I simply dun get this thing everyone's sayin' about Iggy.... *blur...* life is weird..... then I got addicted to the teo lines "This is my song of single status, my declaration of independence...".... I dunnno why... ahahahahha... But i guess i've been thinkin' loadz... about everything.... especially about my jelly..... *sighz* Life sux...... oh yea... I bought a prettty lil' pink dress today with moi mummy..... hahahahha.... Really funny.... but it looks nice.... oh well..... So syupid... I'm stupid... I think i've gotten addicted to the name "lionel"... oh yea... the best advice I've recieved the whole day.....
[·ï¡÷¡ï·Ðãr<§¯¯år·ï¡÷¡ï·]...haha... says:
take care don hurt ur self cause of luv....

"This is my song of single status, my declaration of independence..."

2004-07-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

boring day... didn't do much... feeel sleepy... very sleepy... good night....*snores*

Another one
Another one, Juz like the others
names just come and go.
Too many of the same kind
Have held my hand
offered their hearts and lives
none did, none will
but now there' one
One who seems different
He's just got to prove it...

2004-07-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

Life is totally, compleately, extremely and unsurprisingly screwed... Don't ask why... but it juz does like yar... The second half of saturday was most proberbly loads better then the first... saw jelly bean and all... russell scully was tossing coins into tara's kenya donation fund making her late for mass... ahahha... Totally funny... then the teacher makes me and some guy named Gino talk... and i dun really even noe him in the first place... mmm.... then gave anton his letter n all.... Newae... I really dunno wad to think anymore... some ppl are tellin' me this and that about my jelly-bean.... and i simply don't noe weather to believe them.... I mean... If it's not true... they really should tell me... Coz i heard some ppl are being paid to get me and jelly broken... dun ask me wad kinda crap that is but like yar.... OOOOooooo!!! then on sun... I went for this stupid retarded and totally lame talk on sex,life,teens and the church.... then we saw those Aussie band ppl.... Harsha got all caught up with The guy playin' the drums named "matthew or somthin'...." hahahha.... But it was fun..... then my brother bought me loads of stuff!!! 3 polo t-shirts and 2 tank tops!!! ahhaha... He wanted to get me a green mash cap,a black pants and real converse shoes!!! omg... can't believe that He did.... oh yea and the aussie band was real good... Saw jelly watchin' it too... sigh..... I still feel utterly like crap on that subject,.... YEA! then Todays' Tara's B'DAE!!!!! ahahha... yey!!! wished her and all but i haven't exactly given her her present.... hahahha... but yea... was so stupid... we had anklung practise..... How utterly stupid was that? hahahaha.... me,christene and andrea were playin the fools at the back... ahahha... laughing and laughing and not playin' properly... ahahaha... real fun.... hahaha... then went to math tution... my tution teachers wife got food for me! wheee!!! then des and me were talkin' n stuff and about how he hates tuesday's.... how interesting...*rolls eyes*... well he can't graff for nuts... gosh.... then was like so nice to me and all... oh yea... i talked to iggi juz now on the phone... we were laughing throuht the whole conversation.... now i am offically "spastic" and he is officially "retarded".... hahha.... then was talkin' about shit and school and arguin n stuff haha.... Totally weird... I haven't chatted to anton on the phone the whole day... wonder wad's up...... mmmm....

Conversation with someone.... (he made up a sort of poem... and i added a bit more...)

ahah but i noe more shit den alot of satanics,
waddyawanna noe son?
did u noe sweet dreams are made of sins?
but hu am i to disagree?
i travelled the world and the seven seas,
u noe evrbody is lookiun for somthin.
soome of them want to use u,
some of them wanna be used by u,
some of them want to abuse u .
k u wanna hear a prayer ?
u sit in your room alone ,
take powder ,
and pour a circle around u.
den say,
abide the wiccan law ye must witches east witchest west,
my spells you will cast make him free from anger,
make him happy and send him to heaven,
and if u dont abide my commands you will never leave purgatory.
and corpus christi o lord in heaven,
please send my cousin.
He thinks his life is a waste,
and that he has no point of living.
he has notin to offer to the world he cant do anything,
he claims he is useless, please send him to a happier place.
make him understand that we don't want him to pass on lord,
that without him,
we'd all be bored to death,
but especially lord,
that we love him.
friend,son,cousin or brother,
we leave u to guide him.
to know whats right,
to see the light,
that shines ever so bright.
for him.

2004-07-17T09:45:00.000+08:00

stupid... I'm in the computer class now... real dull genevieve, alyssa and i r juz crapin' around on this thing.. ahhha... And I've totally Destroyed my blog! woohooo!!! ahhhhha... Totally sux now... BUt i dun care! ahahha... alyssa's next to me and angel juz wrote "manfred sux" on the com class bored!!! woohooo!!! I'm behined u all The ay Gal! hahaha... SO stupid.. Gen is tryin' to change the song on her blog hearin' the music now... Damn kewl sia... and the computer instrustor man Is so extra... askin' us about ur life and stuff... like hellooo............ do we a\wannna share our life with u?! no rite? ah well We're such naughty ppl... tra and angeline r not here... either they over slept or couldn't be bothered.... hahha... That's e way to go yarz!!! but i've been such a good fren and acctually ticked their names on the regester thingy.... Bloody boring... listn' to "my band" by d 12 blast on music..... ahhaha... Angels here now... talkin' somth. abot ta-ta young... that ta-ta young gurl looks like a no.1 prostitute... seriously... Really bored... everyone's laughin' like craz and I'm being strangled by angel... lalalalala..... omg... suffocating... suffocating..... ok... hahahah....now everyone's doin' an imitation of willum hung... ahhaha... So bloddy bored.... but i got cat class today... hahah... yay!i can see mi jelly-bean... ahhah... Newae... Still real dully-dull...Kimberly can catch frogs! woohooo!!! i want one! tHEN i'LL NAME IT FROGGY... i'M LOOSING MY MIND.. CAN EVERYONE HELP ME FIND IT,.. JKGAXHUQGRKAJKbhcBLNXDJKBCVBFVFL..... kaez sorryy... Tryin' to stop my depression.... gtg now... Class gonna end... Byeez!

2004-07-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

Heya.... today was borin' in school.... hahaha... As everyone noe's... this morning was rainin' like crap.... The whole school floor was flooded and stuff... ahahha... Then I called tara and asked if she wanted moi to pick me up from the bus stop coz I had an umbrella and didn't want her to get sick... ahahha.... But she politely declined.... then she comes into class Totally drenched from head to foot... ahahahha.... Oh welll... my real dumb stupid chinese teacher made me sit out side class today.... How utterly borin'... she's really gettin' on my nerves..... I haven't even done her homework yet... ahahahha.... Oh welll... she sux... then we had cme.... Mrs goh talked about porn sites and pron vcd's and porn this and that... how unsafe it is and the horrible situations we can get ourselves into if we watch them and things.... ahahhaa... How funny.... Gevevieve was laughing and laughin' the entire time.... then tara brought a nice purple tin to school and asks everyone... "HI! would u like to donate to the children of kenya? it only costs $75 to feed a child for the whole year.... $2 donations and abouve are most preferable.... THANK U!"... ahahhaha... But she's one sweet gal... I don't even noe why she's doin' this... "it's for the children of kenya!!!" says she... ahahahha... fuzzy donated only 30cents hahaha....oh well... english was dull too... teach asked questions like "why do bees dance?" and why is the number 13 considered an unlucky number?" like..... How the hell would I noe?! I dun care rite? hahaha... then went to mac's... where tara got angry coz i wrote her name on matts present as "tara-ara-lyn.." ahhahahaa..... sorry gurl! and izzit juz me or has angeline gotten pretier? i dunno she looked so radient today... dunno why... ahahha... then at mac's tara goes around with her purple tin again "donate to the children of kenya!......" wahhaha... funny la that gurl.... then bought ice-cream with chris and Tashi and aud came!!! yey!!! ahahha... had fun playin' round with each others hair and I caught up on the lastest gal gossips... which are by the way "PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTAL!" hahaha... shared fries and donuts and played some weird games....... dun worry they're not satanic games.... then daryl n kevin came..... I dun understand what kevin was trying to tell me thru the glass but like.... yar... ahahha... lately a guy named ignasious or somthing's been messagin' me... ahaha... I dunno how to spell his real name so i call him "Iggy"... hahaa.... but yar he's fun to chat to... then fooled around wit hamster,ton-ton,bread, ry and bry.... took me and bryan's stuff and hid them all over the place... damn bad sial.... And Daryl.... I"M soRRY FOR RUNNING OFF WITH UR HANDPHONE!!! REAL Sorry!!! I didn't mean too! I swear upon my hair!!! *feels guilty* and bradley keeps talkin' my hp!!! brad and chis together is damn funny.... ahhaha... oh well went to kims house and watched a bit of a chinese drama then went to play badminton again.... with ton and ryan...ryan is damn good at playin' badminton man... haha... and kim got a frog as a present for anton.... ahahha.... fooled around at home and my bro made some italian dish.... hahaha.... Damn retarded..... and u noe wad jonella's been sayin"? "bradley's cute, bradley's cute.... Bradley is so cute".... jenna told me....

This is a day, an ordinary day, an every day day of, margret melody lychee...

2004-07-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

Bored.... DIDN't do much today... ahahha... juz had to content with another day of being boring... hahaaha.... stole tara's cupcake tody.... ate it in class..... it was so cold... i don't even noe why i was eating it... hahahahhaa..... ah welll i have a new history teacher who annoys me like crazy..... she thinks rhinoceros's are extinct and unicorn's are endangered..... wad kind of stupid history teacher izzat?!!! and the indian girl infront of me can name the chinese dynasty's better than her!.... my gosh... my history is gonna suck with a teacher like her..... netball is stupid.... went for netball.... but it was cancelled coz the grounds are wet.... wth..... then i went for anklung practise coz i had nothing to do...... and my class is playing for racial harmony day.... how pathetic.... And there's stupid lights shing right in all of our faces..... stupid day......

Blah...*rolls eyes*... hahaha...

2004-07-11T17:24:00.000+08:00

I know at times your worried
And at times your scared,
But I promise you no matter what
i will always be there.
Whenever you need to cry
Or just want to vent,
I will cry with you or
Just sit back and listen.
I wish that I could numb your pain
And lift this burden from your shoulders.
If you were to leave,
Who would I get drunk with when I'm older?
I truly believe that God sent you to me
To keep me from leaving too soon.
Who would I be without my best friend?
It'd be like the sun without its moon.
Tonight I almost lost you
And never have I been so afraid.
Never before in my life
Have I more deeply prayed.
I know there's still so much to go through,
And four years won't go by that fast.
Courage hangs by a thread,
But i'll still remember those words you've said.
But I promise you we will survive.
I know that we will last.
we will rise.

Adapted from dions's blog...

2004-07-11T14:24:00.000+08:00

heyloo.... Sunday today hahahah... but i didn't update about yesterday yarhz? so.... hmmm... yesterday.... I went for speech class linette din't go coz she was sick and stuff then Our teacher was trying to teach us how to be confident and to stand up for ourselvess.... To love ourselves and not to care about wad otherz think about us.... then SHe made us stand on the chair and shout "I AM ____, And I LOVE MYSELF!" before that.... I was thinkin about all the people in my life who have juz been trying to put me down, who pass insults and joke at my expense... Making me feel bad juz because they wanna feel big and important..... how Stupid... then about 'those ppl' and wad they've been tryin' to do to me..... then I was juz like..... I don't care wad they think anymore.... they're juz bastards with permenent cases of errections... Then I stood up on the chair and shouted "I AM KATHY AND I LOVE MYSELF!" acctually.... I don't noe wad that exercise was for... but it made me feel good.... Better then I have in a long time..... ah well... then went to church... cat.class.... Saw my galfriends sonya,lyn n tash.... all of them were wearin' skirts... I felt so left out... ah well... cat class was borin' coz susan wasn't there and our other teacher micheal Doesn't noe how on earth to control the class.... SO I was like bored.... newae... SOnya likes _______ AGain!! and I caught him lookin' at her durin' class..... ALOT! so lemme see if they'll go anywhere from here... saved ____'s number into lyn's phone I stole the class regester, and lyn thought he was cute... ahha.... mmmm.... saw Jelly too... lyn caught me and him sharin'' a secret smile.... (i felt like squealing...) fam. mass was a bore.... the elephant priest was giving a boring and uninteresting homily about how we all Should take our faith seriously.... the seating arrangement of the servers in the mass was interesting tho.... basile,charles at one end.... Melissa lim was so happy... and leon at another end..... ah well... then ate beef noodles with parentz.... this morning i watched "love don't cost a thing" starring nick cannon and christiana millan.... Awsome show... the father was the kid teaching how to unwrap a condom fast enough and teachin' him all the different types too... hahah... A father teachin'; the boy to have f*** ?The girlz were super hot... and the cheerleading..... excellent... hahaha... Everyone should watch it...

2004-07-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

hello..... here i am again... repeating the daily uninteresting cycle of the life of...... me... well school was borin' oday as usual.... i think the miss judy goh's angry at me... ahhaha... Duh! She's nice n all... ahhahaha... too nice,... I think she knows i sms in class but she juz dun say anythin',... ahhaha... she rawkz baby! had to do some art imrpovisation thing during lit.... hahahha... I had to "row a boat" wooohhoooo! how interestin'! but I got full markz for it anyway... hahaha... then for the Group improvisation thing corraine and I made a dance up in like 5 mins before the thing hahaha... everyone kept laughin'... it was like run then jump then cha cha cha... hahahha... and It went real well! hahahahhaha.... We got full markz for that too! yea baby! well lit is fun... and so is l.a.p.... Tara said she wants to take tripple science the year after next... mmmm... I wouldn't think she'd be the sort... hahaha... wants to lean stuff about the brain?! ermmm... right... that so don't sound like tara eh? ahhahaha... gosh and Me her and angeline were rushin' like crazy through our chinese homework that we were supposed to have passed up two dayz ago.... Thankfully our chi teach is forgivin'.... "phew"... but we got it in ontime... hahaha... thanks to corraine,candice and sarah chew!!! YAY! I love ya galz! went to help jonella with her class photo money... and ya noe wad? She can't count! Kept getin' mixed up and EVERythin'! my gawd... how on earth did she ever become Chairman? 1/7 really did a huge mistake there..... But she's nice la.... that I can say.... saw Ton-Ton, jelly-bean, Laugh-a-lotz, gay-boy,chow-chow and Darlie-toothpaste/Ducky too.... Daryl was lookin' moody the whole day.... i woder wad'z up with him.... sometimez i worry for that ducky.... *tsk* he'z been lookin' disturbed lately.... oh well.... hakim was gettin' me worked up today.... by doing a certian somthing.... mmmmm.... that fella'z gonna get it from me one day...... Saw ton-ton'z server book too...... hmmmm.... why is my name in it? ah well.... He drawz nice.... jelly smiled a smile today I dun think i'll ever foget.... *dreamy sigh*.... I'm loosing my mind again..... ah well went for tution... got loads of homework.... got chased by a cat with harsha n alex juz now.... haahahhahaha... was damn funny! ahahahha... ah welll I guess i'll see most of u ppl tomorrow yarz? wahahaha... ah welll Byeez!

2004-07-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

sigh... ah well... My cousin kim wacked Ryan donnahue right smack in the middle of the fore head with the shuttle cock yesterday... Wooohhhooooo! It's things like this she does that makes me wanna sqeeze her!yey! school was stupid as usual... ahhaha... Juz read the lateset issue of W.I.T.C.H magazine and boooooya It rawkz my man! ahahha... Will is so pretty duncha tink? ahhha... But she's a cartoon character so like yar.... wahahha... n the whole day me n tara were passin our "lil' black book" *wink* back and fourth the class... hehhe... It's a long timesince we've been doin' that... then me and fuzzy scurried off to mac'z with sha',sam.p,nicole and clare... lalala... me n fuzzy started studying like crazy and sam looked at me and asked me "R u kathy?".... ahhaha... coz it's a million yearz since I've been studyin'... I dunno why either... fuzzy kept getting all worked up on the math sum... mmm... SOmetimez I worry about that gal.... hehehehe... But I still love her all the same.... wheeeeeeeeEEEEE! ahhaha... then sha' n sam were checkin' moi bag n all... hahhaha... Funny la those two... Especially once they came across my diary... ahhhaa... the things those two can do... mmm.... we stole nicole,hakim and ryan donnohue's chipz in the process... Including two of ryan tan's sardine sandwiches... hehehhe... *giggle* they're not bad ya noe.... Ya better watch out ton-ton! there might be a new chef in town! hahahha... saw brad too... Stuffed two dollars of mine into the hp pouch of his bag coz I owe him and he wouldn't take it... ahhaha... He's such a nice cousin duncha think? And He'll be some professional voice changer when he growz up.... hahhaha... But He tried to tell me about this scary story...... hahaa... But I ended up laughing my head off every split second instead.... hahahaha... Eugene kept laughing repeatedly once someone said "once there was a mad cow, and a normal cow..." hahaahaha... that joke of kevins is gonna get eugene laughing to his grave one day hahaha.... Ah well kev's a funny fella.... ah well then I went for tution.... boring............ then I went to kim'z house! hehehhe.... YAy! lalla... slacked around then came home... bathed changed clothes etc n now I'm here sittin; in front of the com screen typin' this..... Sleeeepppyy.... I dun wanna go to skewl tomorrow... But looks like I dun have a choice...a h well... Byeeez!

2004-07-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

Hi... Kathy here... Filling up on the daily or weekly reports on her Pathetic, lame and useless life... made a burger yesterday... *ohhhhh How Interesting?* Well It's the first time in my life i made one... And It was like... In homecons... I suck at homecons... seriously... no matter wad... I swear I'm never gonna be a cook when I grow up... Proberbly gonna poison everyone till they suffoctae and die... and ya noe wad? I have to do a project on nutritional rice... "NUTRITIONAL RICE!" wtf... like... Hello.......... I eat rice everyday... the proberbly most stupidest project in the history of the world.... skewl sucked today as usual... TWO periods of chinese(my most dreaded subject in the history of the world) then I had Two Periods of MATH!! WTH! Math! another stupid subject... My ass teacher miss Nooryati juz strides up and down the center of the classroom like some stupid ass model flickin' her hair around too like some bimbotic freak.... SUch an idiot... can't even teach properly.... HOw annoyin'... mr karib came in too... lookin' like the mad owl that he always is... at kim's house now... slackin'... hahaha... she's laughin' her head of while listening to ryan donno hu and ton-ton argue over the phone... hahahahahha... It's good to see she's havin' a nice time... hahahaha... Peace out! byeez!

2004-07-03T12:55:00.000+08:00

i feel like crap... dunno wad sin i did... I jus feel like crap... well... I noe wad sin i did,.. I made another person feel like shit... SO... It's a sin... sigh... I dunno, thinkin' alot about all the wrong things i did in my life... and Gawd it's been sucky... I think I'm going mad... Gotta be put in some asylum... cried non-stop last night till i slept at like 4 in the morning... ah well.. I can't believe I'm such an idiot.... when I'm rejecting 'him'... I kiss him... WTF... I'm so F'ing angry at myself... Now I'm sure "he" hates me.... Coz "he" noes... most proberbly 'he' told "him" about it... Why am I so stupid... Can't even make up my mind in the beginning... Now I'm in such a stupid lame and Retarded mess... I'm not pissed at "him" at all... even tho i think "he" thinks I am... but I'm sure "he's" pissed at me... and in the first place... he has every right to be.... Gawd i hate myself... Got all emotional and stuff when I was listening to "too lost in you"-sugarbabes on the radio.... and to make things worse.... I watched "bridiget jones diary" and felt even more like crap....... there's nothing wrong with the world... the worlds not screwed... It's my head that's screwed... even mi mom's noticed i'm not being posative anymore.... at that's somthing......

2004-06-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

I'm sleepy... zzzzzzzzzzzzzz......... gonna sleep now..

2004-06-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the first day of school.... SIgh boring man... got a new art teacher hu everyone calls pervertic... tryin' so hard to be funny but juz dun work... ahahha... and my netball teacher is my history teacher.... can u believe it... history... the most boring subject in the world....

2004-06-26T11:01:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........ blagh! I sucked yesterday during the performance... totally went off key during the first song.... Blah... wahahahahqha! oh yea! omg! Chris toh broke his arm while ollieing down one storey! weird bloke... If he doesn't stop being so extreme he's gonna get himself killed one day that hamster... sigh.... n I noe hu russell Scully likes! wheee!!! wwhahhahaa,... and I can't believe it's her... ahahhaa.... BUt she is Pretty moi man! n she's one stylo-milo of a gal! w00t! ahhahha... not bad choice russ... not a bad choice... ahhaha... well... during the performance yesterday loads of things went kaput... ahahha... like me and my offkey.. my mom and her lines n my mom's mike wasn't turned on and the sound system kept going weird... well hope that dun hapen today... lalalalala... sigh... I'm so sleepy... not getting enough sleep... I still have my ten chonese reviuews and my essay to finish on mon... sigh./.. ultra mad... Gonna get screwing by m,y chinese teach on mon... Really gonna die.... my dad juz gave me a talk on the language that I use... sleepy... byeez!

2004-06-25T12:26:00.000+08:00

oh lord... I'm so scared... performance in like... nine hours... gotta pray... gotta pray....

2004-06-23T10:49:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! wahhaha... I'm at home now ahhaha... mmmm... my msn's not workin... ahhaa... I'm listening to my mom's 60's music coz It's flooding the house... hahaha... yesterday was fun... ahahah... i'm not gonna say anything coz most of u ppl already noe... sigh... I'm ghaving real tough times.... only one person hu can change mty mind now... But i highly doubt it.... ahahahahahah.... ...... why is there turtle food on my com table?

2004-06-23T10:49:00.001+08:00

2004-06-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

All U stupid ppl hu think Those kind of things are happening between me n anton... PLEASE!!!! HE's MY COUzin!!! Freaking asses... STupid ppl... Hello!!! I talk to him every night only coz I have problems and He's my number 1 counseller kaes? f***... PLease stop those retarded rumours./....

2004-06-20T10:05:00.000+08:00

k... I shall not be so bad... In fact... Sham Is a great breaker, always thought he was till justin came along... and since i noe sham a lil' bit more... I shall be supportive of him... whahaaha... so sham Rox sham rox sham rox sham rox sham Rox sham rox sham rox sham rox sham Rox sham rox sham rox sham rox ham Rox sham rox sham rox sham rox sham Rox sham rox sham rox sham rox sham Rox sham rox sham rox sham rox Wahahahahh!!! n leon also la kaes... he's the bestest guyfriend i could have and he burns daryl and guitaring... heehe...

2004-06-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

Daryl burns leon at drumming! daryl burns leon at drumming!!!! WAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHhahaahahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaahahhaha... I'm goin' crazy... I need my panadol...

2004-06-16T18:05:00.000+08:00

Anton is a friend only!!! Please ppl!!! He's my no.1 counseller!And yes daryl, you DO burn leon at drumming... dedication to bradley is coz I was BORED... PLEASE!!!! hahaha... n everyone, I ALREADY know "jelly-bean" dun like me no more.... I dun like him in that way anymore either! so that's cleared... good!!! now it's a "haha" n "hamster" kinda thing.... so Yea... for all sec 1 cat. class ppl... there's a party tomorrow at east coast beach... meet at east coast mac's at 3 tomorrow... ahhaha... I recamend ya'll to go!!!!!!!!!!

2004-06-15T17:37:00.000+08:00

went out wit dance ppl todae hehehe... Big dance concert commin' up! soooo excited... hahaha... "i'm good without u", "my band" nad "yea".... whoOOOOO!!! hahaha... kewl man... was practising juz now... ahhaha... newae... I was supposed to meet son, lyn n tash... but in the end... the going out with them got cancelled so in the end i got dragged all over singapore by leon hahaha... leon likes drumming now ya noe... thanks to tara... hahaha.... then met chris near kembangan wit sham and some cool breaker dude named justin.... DAM KEWL SIA!!!! best breaker I've evr seen.... Sham looks real low class next to him... chris and justin Burned Leon and sham in a Breaking showdown... ahhaha... i Never knew chris could break... ahhaha... Chirs challenged leon also... ahhaha... CHris did some 'spinarooni' stuff n leon did some lame thing which made him look constipated... ahhaha... newae... I shall not complain... leon bought moi a necklace cross thingy... hahaha... it's real nice ahhaha... ton-ton also thinks I'm mad at him... ahhahha.... I haven't skated for so freaking long sia... totally lost my touch... Couldn't even control to board today when I tried... ahahha... sham sux n justin rox... Muhahahhaa... chris was nice to me the whole day.... hahaha... while leon ran off to play with his friends... chris stayed right next to me... hehehe... Chris rox.... ahhahaha... He's one skate pro man! hahahah... oh yea... went to his house... hahhaha... really like one zoo man! clothes all over the house... so many birds.... one fish... two turtles... n one snappin' turtle... ahhaha... real kool... then two dog's some more hahaha... "rusty" n "keller"... ahhaha... so cute... hahha... n then he walked me all the way to the main road to get a cab... ahhaa... so nice... see! hahaha... newae... in the cab... The driver damn funny sia... was making fun of all the things we could see along the road./.. ahhaha... Funny... then he offered me some fruit which tasted like glue... Yuck... hahaha... newae... now I'm here... typing this thingy.. hahaha... oh yea! anyone hu's interested in buying a deck? from "rage" A brand in the U.S... longboard... it's pretty heavy... and it's the only deck of mine I'm not able to sell so... if interested... tag my board kaez?!! hahaha... BYEEZ!

2004-06-14T21:48:00.001+08:00

I'm hungry.... hahhaa...

2004-06-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

I love _____!!!! It's offical....hahaha...

2004-06-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

ok.... this blog is dedicated to bradley...
Bradley.. toked to him on the phone yesterday wit ton-ton... He was playing guitar most of the time.... mad bugger... when I was Screaming there was a cockaroach in the kitchen... He nicely talks about his hair being able to reach his nose.... and his hair is the same colour as his skin.... AND HIS HAIR *blahblahblah*.... aniway... I STIlll haven't gotten to the bottem of the cat. class thingy.... Brad says it's on wed... mmmmmm.... let's see... hahaha... my mom was talkin' about that fella alos juz now... hahaha... SHe said:"Bradley's so chubby... then his 2 sister's are as skiny as sticks... no wonder... He must be taking all the food la..." hahahahhahhaa..... but brad'z got one cute laugh la.... hahaha.... OH YEA! n my mom said that Brad is'SHY'... Yea rite.... hahaha...

2004-06-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm SICk!!! Argh!!! retarded flu... hehehe... sleeepy sleepy... hahaha... went for mr lims n all today hahahaha..... Sleepy.. was practising dance... argh! I kee[p forgetting he 4th step.... haahha... Sleepy sleepy!!! I shall sleep..... Good nite! Ryan-Dunno-Hu is funny! hhahaha... Byeez!

2004-06-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

"He" Is hot! Real hot... hahaha... saw him at the carnival... WHOA!!!

2004-06-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

Heya! hahaha... I'm exhausted... Came back from tm wit moi sis haha... bought a very kewl Green skirt haha... played in toysaurus... hahaa... Very fun... was playin' with all the toys haha... Being lame... hahaha... and my sista's friends sister is sssssssssoooooooooo hyper! She was runnin' here n there... haha... Oh yea! moi went into the converse Shop n was droolin' over all the shoes.... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... I want a converse shoe!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so gonna get one... I dun care how haha... saw that Desmond Guy from my math tution ahha... saw desiree too!!!! omg haha... was walkin' around with her for a while... then I saw josh hahha... and now desiree likes his Friend i think hahaha... I smsed Russell scully today... thought it was matthew... hahaha... I Really thought it was matt hahah... oh well... tomorrow is sps carnival dae... I'm gonna search like crazy for alex hahaa.... oh well....
BYeez!

2004-06-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm like... talkin' to joel-ley Jelly now hahah... I beat him at battledome twice! hawhaw... hhaha... watched "love acctually" today... Chris was Riyght! that IS an awsome show haha... I'm sleepy... it's gonna be an hour till tomorrow hahaha... and the new skin is all thankz to hahn... haha... I'm wacked!!!! D&T..... welll..... sigh.............. n oh yea! that day... we were at mac's... me, angeline, tara, nathalie n clarrissa... hahha... we all accompanied nat to mac's Coz she wanted to se.... *ahem* hahha... and Meet deni n all ahhaa... so we went to accompany her n she stayed at mac's while we went to the bus stop to wait for the bus.... those ppl found a hamster cage and there wre 2 in it! one was dead..... so we took the alive one with us into the bus! Warren wanted to rip it apart.... (tt meannie)... well... me, angeline n tara named it Daddy-dJ! ahhaha... so cute! then we went to tara's house n helped her spring clean ahhaha... n the whole day we juz sang the freaky friday song "dun wanna grow up" hahaha.... ARGH!!!!! my phone has no batt!!!! oh well... Guess it'll be tomorrow till I talk to him.... wahahaha... I'm WACKED!!!! hahaha...

2004-06-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

Somthing happened today... """"he"""" doesn't like me... that's the end of my life and I noe it... I Feel:Betrayed, I AM:an idiot, I HaTE:myself... I dun think I'm going anywhere... I shall juz Shut up and Perish... I'm entirely loosing it... could I just die... I shall juz not like anyone anymore...
AH KATHY GET A GRIP ON URSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lost lost..... I'm lost.................................
ShUDDuP N LiStEn MAn! It'S NoT ThE eNd Of ThhE WOrLd N U nOe iT! MoVe On With Ur LIfe And JuZ ShUdedUp!!
I'm not worth it... I'm not worth it... He's Too good for me... I'm not worth it...
O... It'S NoT tHe EnD Of ThE WoRlD AnD u NoE iT!
i'm not listening... I'm not listening....
LaLaLALALALALALALALLALALALALALALALALAALLALAALALALALLALALALALA.....
SiNg! SinG A SOnG! DuN Care ABout thAt FeLlA N MoooooovEEEEEEEEE on!
I can't I can't move on...
THrE!!! Ur liSteninG!!!! HAhahahahaAAHAHAhHAHAAHhaHAhHagAHhHHAhahah ahA....
oh shuddup kutz...
OH!!!! So NoW Ur AsKin' MOI! To ShUddUP! Ok oK.......
BLahlhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

I Became insane from depression...

2004-06-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

Elllo yellow!!!! hahahah... long time again... ah well. I wenty for my speech exam and it totally sucked... hahaha.... Oh yes! And If hahn's reading this... I'm sorry! I have no idea how to link ppl! Kevin's been doing everything for me! hhahah... well on msn I'll try to get ya to help moi yar? haha... Thankz... OH well... Holidayz... now they're here... They're acctually quite boring... hahha... But I am SO gonna watch Confessions of a teenage drama queen ahahha... LIndsy lohan SO rawkz,... I watched Freaky Friday yesterday... ahhha... The Songz were awsome hahaha... I've been staying at home the entire day... *yawn* so sleepy... hahaha... oh yea!!!! and my kcp neighbour Is Excellent! She's been goiving me all the Giossips On my old school!!!! and *ahem* one of my cca Juniorz haha... ah well... wad can I say... KCIANZ RAWK MAN!!!! ahhaha... I wonder where tara is.... SHe's not pickin' up her Phone... mmmmmmmmm.... I'm gonna be so Bored during the Holidayz... hahaha... oh yea!!!! Lynette's Birthday is cummin' up!!! "nai" will make a move I hope... hahahaha... Oh yea... this weekend is sps carnival dae! means I gotta contact nathalie,tara,angeline,sonya,lynette n Tash... ahhahaha... Ah well... I'm eatin'' crunchie now... yay!!! I"m hungry hahaha... Oh yea!!! harry Potterz out!!!!!!! HArry Potters out!!!! I'm so Gonna see it... hahha... The lord of the rings was better tho but I dun care!!!! HARRY POTTERZ OUT!!!!! hahaha... ah well.. My mummzy wants to use the com now hahaha... I think I might have to call fuzzy too... Mmmmmmmmm..... not sure hu asked me to go to the carnival with em... hahha... well Ciao!!!!~kathy/kutz/kit-kat....

2004-05-29T08:44:00.000+08:00

I'm Terribly tired, All that Reading from the "complete and Unabridged Works Of Cranford". It's an Extremely Uninteresting book, which it's pages filed with "unwarlike maiden ladies and widows of an elegant age". I could simply SLeep from the boresome contents in which I'm Pressured to endulge. I could Simply Curse That Solem old lady Elizabeth Gaskell for writing and Publishing SUch an unenticing book. For no one by the likes of I, Would ever read it for Any matter or way of life... yesterday in school, we had the Founders day mass of our Dear nicholas Barre. Taralyn, Angeline and I were Making Rude contradictions about the Friar/priest/Father (what-have-you-not) to bearing a striking resemblance to the Character in the Movie "hellboy". The 2nd movie of which I have watched twice. For his Homily, He started of with a interesting topic of how "Sji Boys take very much to the likes of Girls which are" (as he conffered) " 'dumbos' not all Girls are dumbo's " said he, with a glint of expectism in his eyes. He also Said that SJI boyz are scared of IJ girls because... IJ girls know what they want. IT'sn't that simply outstanding! THree cheers for that Maricoulous Priest/friar/brother (whatever). now, my question is.... Is that true?

2004-05-27T18:34:00.000+08:00

YEllow!!! ages since i've written in here again.... IT's Gonna be the holidays soon yay!!!! peace!!!! hahaha... well... weird things have been going on.... Congratulations to Shahirah and armani on Their Beautiful new relationship! YAY!!!! *clap clap clap* D&T FOrever too!!!! hahaha... Hwee li's Going back to america!!!!!!! I'm so gonna miss her..

2004-05-17T12:00:00.000+08:00

ok ok...... hahahaha... nathalie dissed me coz... she had to go home hahha... such a gud girl hahah... well i think she's in kcp with fuzzy now hahha....